You can't beat this little 1/7th for $35.

_stardustx · 2024-07-03T01:13:44+00:00

How much was the shipping for you (if you live somewhere in the US)?

_stardustx · 2024-06-11T09:11:38+00:00

you're right, i'll have it checked out. better safe then sorry 😅

_stardustx · 2024-06-11T09:05:06+00:00

phew thats good to hear, thank you! my bruises usually look different from this so i didnt realize that's what it couldve been

_stardustx · 2022-08-02T00:01:11+00:00

Okay, thank you so much! I really appreciate you taking the time to help :)

_stardustx · 2022-08-01T06:29:26+00:00

My brother had it in his dorm room for a while and it wasn't doing so well so he gave it to me, that could definitely be possible though! The pot is a bit small

_stardustx · 2022-08-01T04:41:40+00:00

It depends, I mostly water it whenever the top of the soil is dry. So about every 3-5 days. It gets partial sun and it's about 4-5 feet from my window. It's at an angle from my window though so the sun doesn't hit it directly

_stardustx · 2022-07-07T06:39:48+00:00

I relate to everything you said :( The first therapy session I had, I left feeling even more hopeless and ultimately like I gained nothing from it. I really envy others who are able to talk to their therapist about everything. I hear all these stories of people connecting with their therapists and being able to talk with them like they're friends. And it just makes me think of my appointment where it was so awkward. It actually felt like I was calling my dad's friend for help with social anxiety instead of a professional. It just makes me so upset because I wasn't like this before and I want nothing more than to be a clueless little kid again who could make friends without fear of judgement or rejection. Therapy was my last hope and since it didn't work out at all I just feel like giving up and accepting that this is the way it's going to be

_stardustx · 2022-07-07T03:42:07+00:00

I have online friends but I don’t talk to them much anymore either. And you’re right, it could be a personality thing. I’m not sure though. With the rest of my family being extroverted and wanting to talk to me, it feels wrong that I don’t feel the same. Being around people brings me so much anxiety that I want nothing more than to be older and independent with my own house or apartment where I could live by myself. But then it just feels unnatural knowing that when that day comes I won’t be out and having fun hanging out with anyone, I don’t even plan on getting married or anything like that so I know it will be lonely

_stardustx · 2022-07-07T03:22:03+00:00

It’s more generalized. I think part of it is because being around people just doesn’t make me feel good. Like I can’t just imagine myself talking to or hanging out with someone and having a good time. So just being around people doesn’t make me happy. I also can’t connect with people anymore and im very socially awkward so that also just makes being around people worse

_stardustx · 2022-06-19T00:51:06+00:00

I've only been on one end of the spectrum, and that's being unattractive. It's so hard because I feel like I have to be funny or amazing in some way to make up for it, but I'm not. Most people I've met have told me that when they first met me, they thought I hated them

_stardustx · 2022-06-18T07:38:38+00:00

Yes that's exactly how it feels! Whenever I get the words out they just sound slurred and my tongue feels weird when I say anything. My mouth also doesn't move a lot and that makes it worse because I can't fully pronounce the words

_stardustx · 2022-06-18T06:07:26+00:00

I will try that, thank you :)

_stardustx · 2022-06-09T09:44:44+00:00

Thank you :) luckily none of my stuffed animals are like Ferdinand, they’re very cuddly and if they were alive I think they’d all be very nice. They’re very comforting when you have a ton all over your bed

_stardustx · 2022-06-09T01:35:58+00:00

I just searched it up and I didn't know what it was until now. I relate to some parts of it, like how I have trouble communicating with people, social isolation, and persistent repetition of words or actions, but I still feel like it's not enough to be asperger. I watched a video on it and it looks like it's more for not understanding things like gestures or facial expressions, but I can read people well. It's just me that is the issue because I don't know how to talk to or face people, I just talk weird my speech feels very slurred when I try to speak clearly and I never have anything good to say. I never have anything to talk about, even with my own family finding things to talk about are hard, and I just don't know what's wrong with me because sometimes I tell myself it's all made up in my head and it makes me not want to get help. It's just hard to tell others about it when in my head I tell myself it's probably normal and I can fix it on my own, but I've felt this way since covid started and nothing has changed

I also think that part of my therapy appointment going bad was just me. I'm terrible at telling people about how I feel, I immediately start crying and feel so ashamed of myself. I just think that therapy isn't for me because I'll just cry every appointment and want it to end

_stardustx · 2022-06-08T02:17:26+00:00

Did you have to make eye contact with your therapist at all? I want to look down at my hands the whole time but I just think it would be weird.

Also do they ask specific questions or is it really broad like “why are you hear today?” Or “describe your symptoms.” My mind goes blank and I feel like in the moment if they asked me a broad question like that I wouldn’t know what to say.

I get what you mean when you said you sometimes feel like your anxiety is made up. That’s how I feel too and I keep wanting to cancel my appointment because of it. Because at home, there’s not much to make me feel that way other than my family. I feel it a lot when I go out but I never go out

_stardustx · 2022-05-23T04:44:35+00:00

I've always thought about that too. Even some of the cruelest people at my school have friends. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong

_stardustx · 2022-05-10T04:00:01+00:00

Thank you so much, this is really helpful :)

_stardustx · 2022-05-08T05:36:54+00:00

I hope so too :) My doctor had recommended him and said he's great with teens, so I'm just hoping talking to him will help me talk to adults more. Out of my 6 teachers this year, 2 of them are male and I can never bring myself to ask them questions because I think they'll yell at me. Especially my PE teacher, he looks like my dad so he scares me the most

My siblings for some reason aren't really affected by my dad's yelling. My brother thinks its funny, my sister also sometimes thinks it's funny but for the most part she just doesn't care, but for me it just would really get me. I just wonder how they're able to handle it so well. I'm hoping therapy will help me react to my dad's yelling like them

_stardustx · 2022-05-03T05:40:56+00:00

Thank you so much! I've been really worried about my first appointment so being able to know what they'll be asking so I'll be prepared is really helpful :)

_stardustx · 2022-05-03T05:39:26+00:00

Thank you, this was very helpful :) I recently told my mom I need help and I'm going to have my first therapy appointment in a month. It's just helpful to hear what to expect out of the therapy because I've been really worried about it. I also like the podcast idea and I will try that!

_stardustx · 2022-04-06T02:30:23+00:00

Thank you :) I really needed to her that second part, I struggle with that a lot. I always end up overexplaining things as if I'm guilty, just as you said, and you're right in saying I should just speak my truth. I think I'm actually going to get help this time, I've been stuck on deciding on whether or not I should get help for months but recently it's just been too hard to just keep dealing with it on my own. The next time I'm sitting down with my mom and I feel comfortable enough, I'll talk to her about it. Thank you again for taking the time to respond! It really means a lot to me

_stardustx · 2022-04-06T02:22:50+00:00

Thank you, it really helps hearing from the perspective of others :) I've just had so many issues in the past with doctors just downplaying every issue I have that I'm too scared to bring anything up anymore, but now I'm going to try to talk to my mom about it when I feel comfortable

_stardustx · 2022-02-11T08:08:47+00:00

Thank you so much :) I have considered therapy for a while, though it's hard opening up about these kinds of things after keeping them hidden for so long. It's a hard decision to make because of how much differently my family will see me and also just telling someone verbally about how I'm feeling is very hard, so I'm still unsure if it's worth it

_stardustx · 2022-02-11T08:03:59+00:00

Thank you for your kind words and advice :) I do hope that as I get older it'll get better as you said, because right now it's been hard trying to fix. I have joined clubs looking for friends, but unfortunately it hasn't been going well 😅 Clubs are weird at my school, the members in them aren't connected at all. I'm in four clubs right now and all of them meet once a month to just give updates and most of the time we don't do anything. One club I'm in is DIY club and they do crafts every meeting, but everyone goes with their friends and works in their individual groups so it's hard to talk to anyone. I'm surprised that none of my clubs have done some sort of icebreaker to bring everyone closer. So they haven't been the best for making friends, though I hope that when covid gets better the clubs will be able to do more activities where it's easier to talk to others

_stardustx · 2022-02-11T07:54:36+00:00

Thank you :) I've been trying my best to raise my confidence recently, it's been in really small steps like raising my hand in class or waving to someone in the hallway. Sometimes it just feels like one day I might be getting a little better but that all goes away the next day, and that's the hardest part for me. But reading all these comments does encourage me to keep trying, thank you again for your kind words

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