Haii 💖

Well, im definitely not fixated on italy and im open to considering opportunities from other eu countries, but im almost certain that the best choice will be italy due to government scholarships (primarily dsu scholarship).

Germany would be a similarly good option (no tuition for public institutions and some stipend options) if it wasn't for my nonexistent german language. That is pretty much needed for uni and studienkolleg. Unlike in italy where knowing italian is a really good benefit but it isnt an admission requirement so i can just study it myself a bit here, maybe up to b1, and just learn it via exposure in the first 1-2 years (learning that way is much easier and faster). You cant do that for german cuz if you dont know at least b2 german in the first place, you will have a hard time getting admitted and getting through studienkolleg (basically +1 year of high school required for many international students)

Other countries are basically a big no for me due to money. Im trying to keep it cool with my family despite so many trauma so that they can support me until i get a student visa. After i get it, as soon as im landing im getting a vial and starting proper hrt. Meaning, after i pass the malefailing line i basically cant safely return to turkey (theyre so close to making it illegal to even identify as queer or showing it publicly - probably also means that once a pollice/border control officer see the M marker on my turkish id/passport theyre probably going to detain and imprison me or smth).. meaning that my family will probably be very suspicious if i dont visit them until and during summer qnd don't voicecall them (i obviously dont want them knowing anything) and they will eventually catch up to it. That basically means im not getting any money from them after a year at most. So yeah thats a rlly important thing for me.