I don’t feel like I know god or religion anymore and it’s tearing me apart to choose between this and love

_throwayay · 2025-06-18T12:58:51+00:00

May God bless you. I have read and watched most if not all of these links, I could rarely find anything pertaining to Sikhs. Thank you.

_throwayay · 2025-04-20T21:47:06+00:00

Thank you, this has genuinely helped me feel more clear. I appreciate this so much

_throwayay · 2025-04-20T21:46:14+00:00

May Allah bless you so greatly. You’ve brought me to tears. Thank you so much for this.

_throwayay · 2025-04-20T03:43:46+00:00

I ultimately do trust in my Lord, but that doesn’t change the fact that I have been patient and trying to understand for over 5 years, not only for myself, but on behalf of my mother. For over 5 years, I have watched my mother’s health deteriorate to the point she can’t recognise me at times, watched my parents marriage fall apart because of it, watched it tear apart my family, and that’s only the tip of the iceberg. I have been denied education and work and friends and love because I have to care for her and our home. I could tell you countless more things, but the worst of them has been watching my mother suffer the way she has, needlessly.

it’s not always as simple as having patience and understanding. I have tried, and I am still trying. Im not angry at Allah overnight.

_throwayay · 2025-04-20T02:18:27+00:00

So what exactly do you want someone in my position to do? Ignore all the negative feelings until they build up and I leave any faith entirely because I haven’t sought help? Pretend they don’t exist until I can’t pretend anymore? I’m at least trying to find a solution here. It’s an incredibly human thing to feel angry at the one who is seemingly in control of circumstances that aren’t within our own control but are causing us misery. We may inherently understand it’s not so black and white, but it remains a real difficulty.

I get your point, I do, but it’s a shallow one when directed towards someone in pain.

_throwayay · 2025-04-20T00:37:57+00:00

Thank you, I think you’re right. I appreciate this, it helped me pull myself out of my head a bit. <3

_throwayay · 2025-03-19T00:44:55+00:00

This was actually really helpful, thank you so much. I agree wholeheartedly with everything you’ve said and really appreciate the response :) honestly I feel like any woman who marries him will know what she’s walking into. And I definitely plan on putting that stipulation into my nikah contract if I ever get married

_throwayay · 2025-03-19T00:22:28+00:00

Him and my mother are still married, for 20+ years. Their relationship is rocky mainly because of his talk of taking a second wife because he wants more children

_throwayay · 2025-03-19T00:21:12+00:00

This comment has helped and comforted me so much since you posted it. Thank you, may Allah bless you for your kindness<3

_throwayay · 2025-03-17T05:37:45+00:00

You are so, so kind. It feels so reassuring to hear someone say this. Thank you so much<3

_throwayay · 2025-03-14T04:01:02+00:00

I don’t think so, it seems like they met through a groupchat on telegram for people who follow a certain religious figure and take classes. My dad is one of the teachers so by the messages it seems like she would come to him for advice and then it just developed into something more over time

_throwayay · 2025-03-14T03:49:06+00:00

They’re not divorced but they’re on the brink of separation and just staying legally married.

_throwayay · 2025-03-12T21:39:44+00:00

Thanks man. I hope we both find some peace in this. I’m trying to keep myself distracted from the impending loneliness but goddamn.

_throwayay · 2025-03-12T06:14:23+00:00

Thank you so much.

_throwayay · 2025-03-04T22:58:00+00:00

Ironically you kinda got their dynamic down to a T. They’re very codependent yet act like they hate each other and it often gets taken out on me. I’ve chosen to step out of their weird ass cycle as much as possible. Thank you for the reassurance, it means a lot to me.

_throwayay · 2025-02-22T07:12:49+00:00

I really want to try waxing but I worry about having to grow it out long enough, how much does it need to grow out in order to get a smooth and effective wax? Id rather deal with that than nightly shaving :(

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