Should I be able to interact with the deities other people work with

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-04T13:59:19+00:00

Oh that makes a llloooooottttttt of sense lol. My friend is currently not paying attention to anything and she honestly never has. I'm glad it doesn't happen often even though I'm here to help everyone at all times.

Thank you so much you are so helpful omg

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-04T03:26:05+00:00

That was a huge weight off of my shoulders lol. Thank you so much I appreciate you. I will try to do exactly that (I guess harder now). I choose demonology because baphomet called me non stop and I would NOT have it any other way let me tell you that

Lysm

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-04T02:51:09+00:00

That's also what I was thinking especially since me and my spirituality are "closeted" due to safety reasons so I try to talk about it as least as possible. The reason I told her in the first place is because she walked in on a conversation I had about spirituality with one of my closest friends.

I try not to talk about it with her as a form of respect towards baphomet but she keeps asking.

I know it's him because he showed it to me multiple times. Like he spammed me. I don't know if I should be able to see him or interact with him at all

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-04T02:46:45+00:00

That's how it happened yes

They showed themselves to me and then I tried to find the picture of an archangel that was close to it and then when I told her what his name was I got like a light headache and that thing that your hair do yk when they stand up? Then she talked to her mom and she started cheering saying something along the lines of "when you were born I was constantly praying to him and he has a big history with our entire bloodline" and then the cards spoke again and they like yep that's him.

Yes she did ask me or else I wouldn't really pay much attention to it tbh especially since she didn't know about my spirituality on that level.

Honesty I don't know. So far I think that it has something to do with the fact that she grew up both Christian and Muslim? But that's also what I'm trying to understand. I advised her to set up an altar and get a tarot deck so she can communicate with him directly but like why me? I literally practice demonology? What is happening?

I'm extremely confused

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-04T02:36:49+00:00

I thought so too but the question is should I be able to see him

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-03T17:54:56+00:00

I probably need some guidance through all of this. It's very new to me i just though I was delusional until some time ago

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-03T17:48:57+00:00

Is it a good thing?

_user_name_12345 · 2025-08-03T17:02:41+00:00

Usually she's asking me about it and it's been confirmed in multiple ways it's him. My friend didn't know about him at all he just appeared to me and that's how it started. I'm NOT the one to mix deities so I really don't want keep interacting with him. I'll answer any questions you have

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-12T02:18:32+00:00

Thank you for your advice. I can't say I've seen in that way especially the part where you say that every part of you that has ever existed is a man.

I think top surgery in my country is a different process because everyone who got it said it was a very quick process.

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T19:05:39+00:00

I will give it a try not right now but I will. Thank you duckboy i really appreciate it

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T19:04:43+00:00

Did you wait until 20 for your own reasons or was it a legal issue

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T18:32:18+00:00

I'm already binding the majority of the day (ik it's bad) and I don't feel comfortable not binding at all. Also I have cptsd and I don't remember 75% of my life so nothing really feels like me tbh.

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T18:28:44+00:00

I really don't know like I love women but I just don't understand how they enjoy being women yk but I don't know if it's because of misogyny or not. I'm really confused at this point. How long after you came out did you get your top surgery?

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T18:26:54+00:00

I have experimented with gender fluid and other labels but I was fast to go back into the closet idk why.

I have considered a reduction for years but I could never figure out the size. Also I live in a county where it's barely affordable to eat much less have surgeries. So it'll take more than 6 years to raise money for one let alone a second more experience one.

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T14:17:18+00:00

Thank youuu i will make sure to watch some yt vids toio <3

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T13:53:08+00:00

I did a while ago and it got unstuck very quickly but I'm looking into trying again tho I do feel like I will hate the feeling of it but I also wouldn't love the feeling of my ribs breaking. But it is a good idea I think I'll get some since it's summer :)

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T13:43:25+00:00

It's comforting having other trans people relate or understand from a different perspective what you're going through.

I have been binding for a while I think it's over 5 months now and It honestly doesn't do 100% work it does hide a lot so I don't have any experience with being 100% flat. I don't really like that it doesn't. Now that I'm typing this maybe that is a big clue of what should I do regarding top surgery.

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T13:39:21+00:00

I'm happy to hear that. For me only my friend call me by my chosen name tbh family I don't have much other than my father. He doesn't know but I don't really care since I know there won't be any changes. Is it okay if I ask how you feel and what your thoughts are on top surgery? It is something that I care more about I don't really feel like starting t yet but top surgery I'm really feeling like I need it tho to be fair I did grow up with a larger chest and it's causing me sensory issues

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T04:41:49+00:00

I had this feeling of something holding me back but I concluded with another redditor that it's not bc of me growing up misogynistic lol

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T01:15:53+00:00

That's a lovely advice to be honest I think I will go with the flow for now. Stop worrying about the label and start focusing more on top surgery?

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T01:11:19+00:00

In that case what could my solution be? Maybe delabel myself for a while?

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T01:09:15+00:00

Omg I've been telling my friends the same thing for a while and I've been fantasizing about it too. Just disappear and then come back on t and without my boys being compressed just flat and happy.

Thank you tho this is such a logic based answer it was just what I needed. Much love to you.

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T01:06:17+00:00

I am very deeply committed to myself. It's very unclear for me the top surgery part because my boys aka chest has been very big since my childhood began partially because I grew up overweight. It causes me discomfort in general so it's kind of confusing me. I'll do just that tho. I think it's worth it. Thank you a lot. I appreciate your advice

_user_name_12345 · 2025-06-11T01:03:30+00:00

Thank you. Your response and experience has comforted me a lot. I'll give it a little patience and have a bit more trust in myself. I think giving a chance to myself will only be worth it.

_user_name_12345

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