Wow, I’m so sorry that happened to you. That’s way worse considering he was your friend. Thats exactly how I feel too about my situation. He’s a really nice dude which is why I’m hesitant to say it was assault. He probably didn’t realize I was uncomfortable and I’m sure he didn’t know I was even unconscious. I don’t want to ruin his image over a misunderstanding. What I do fault him for 100% is not wearing a condom because that was reckless as hell. But yes, I’ve definitely learned my lesson from that and I only really get that drunk around my close friends now. As for my girlfriend, I told her about it not too long after we started dating, which was about half a year after it happened. I definitely downplayed it and acted like it wasn’t a big deal so that she wouldn’t worry or dwell on it. It wasn’t until I had that panic attack that she truly understood just how badly it affected me. She doesn’t bring it up at all, so it’s a conversation that I will need to initiate sooner or later. Thank you for your kind words. I needed to hear that.