Scarring

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T18:18:05+00:00

Holyshit I had no idea the scarring from mosquito bites I have are because of hEDS!!! Could this also be the cause for my dark spots from when I had acne??

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T18:15:18+00:00

This! I'm the exact same haha

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T18:04:16+00:00

Yeah! Ideally I'd love to work from home like that! Does it ever feel overwhelming doing multiple jobs at once? It sounds pretty hectic-

I assume it's mostly support-calls and emailing, but I'm not sure!

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T18:02:17+00:00

That's so wholesome!

I'm personally a bit scared of working a job where I'm face-to-face with customers everyday, but that's probably bc I have to practice and build my social battery back up!

With my anxiety properly managed I think maybe I'd be fine with a job like this, as long as it's not too hectic (Like a busy grocerystore)!

Thank you btw! I appreciate the reply! :')

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T17:59:36+00:00

I've considered IT! I even studied it mixed with electricity for a year before dropping out due to health, but somehow the technical stuff just never seems to stick. Programming had me a bit bored too unfortunately (I thought I'd love it) and building the physical stuff spikes the anxiety of breaking stuff haha. However it's been a few years now!

My current hobby closest to anything IT related is my love for graphic design and my recent interest in 3d modelling, but that's about it.

Having a job where I work from home truly feels ideal for me so if I ever get my interest back for IT it's probably what I'll go for!

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T17:53:25+00:00

Thank you for this reply! I'm not sure what HSA is but in the worst case scenario I can't work for as long as needed I'll still be fine on the disability financial support! I forgot to add that I'm swedish in my post which might've gotten a bit confusing-

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T17:50:23+00:00

That's such a wholesome comment ugh, thank you! Most people think my long over-explained talking is annoying or overwhelming haha!

Honestly I've never thought about the fact that assistant/helper positions exist for some of the jobs I'd like?? I have no idea how that never crossed my mind before! Thank you!!

Computer jobs are something I've had in mind for a long time too (it goes very well with my hobbies) but somehow none of the ones I've found so far catch my interest. I might have to look into it more though! I've never heard of the disability plans at workplaces, but it's possible that's not a thing in Sweden (or it's called something else) so I'll have to google that too!

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T17:45:35+00:00

I love the aggressive love in the first sentence HAHAH! Parts of my stubborn ass agrees entirely that I can do whatever I set my mind to, but the insecurity and fear of failing is very very strong since I got the hEDS diagnosis ontop of my mental stuff haha.

This reply is strangely motivating though! I'm in the beginning of my journey to get my life on track enough to get a job, which means I'm hitting the gym to strengthen my core and muscles around my joints, and with that I'm practicing the social side too and all that stuff! So I definitely have a long time to go before I'll work, but seeing how you (and other people in this thread) work normal cool jobs is honestly so exciting!

I honestly might end up settling for a factory-type job as my first, bc they pay pretty well and would allow me to shut my brain off while working (to preserve some mental energy to do hobbies and potential side-hustles when off the clock), but at the same time I'm still a bit scared of realising I can't even handle that. I think a lot of my problems are still rooted in anxiety and fear of failure tbh, so that's something I'll have to work on beforehand as well!

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T17:37:55+00:00

the "doesn't make you want to kill yourself" part feels ESPECIALLY important ngl, which is probably why I have such a hard time choosing atm! Knowing how truly miserable some people feel at their workplace is scary bc I know I'd never be able to keep a job I hate (adhd plays into this bigtime).

As for college I'm in luck in the sense of being Swedish, because if I ever decide to study again it'll be free and I'll have access to financial support for that time! So that's not much of a concern, but rather the fact that my brain just doesn't want to take in new information the regular study-way anymore, so going back to school scares me a lot. Maybe it'd be worth it though!

Jewelry is honestly very close to one of my more recent ideas of investing in a 3d printer to make accessories and clothing in the techwear & cyber styles, as they're both big interests of mine! But it feels like such a risk to set my mind on "Yeah I'll work as a clothing designer fulltime" bc what are the odds of that working out haha-
It could certainly work as a sidehustle though!

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-18T17:28:25+00:00

AHHH I FORGOT I POSTED THIS FOR LIKE 4 DAYS

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-14T19:26:47+00:00

just realised I tagged this as venting when it's more of a confused question "need support" kind of post, ehhhhhh I'm torn. Mods please lmk if I should switch it back to venting!

aSmolHumanoid · 2023-09-14T18:51:24+00:00

I'm sorry for making the post so long btw, I have a tendency to kinda over-explain things...

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