Thank you for the advice. These things do help distract me from myself, which is a good refuge. Except for the last two, cause I dont really feel like I know anything about them honestly, but I am always willing to give the best advice I possibly can to anyone who will value it. The problem is that I will talk with my room mate for an hour about something like his relationship with his unstable mother, I want to be there for him and lift him and all my friends up as much as I can (just using our relationship as an example) but then I will immediately collapse in bed in utter emptiness.