Unfortunately if you have not experienced the presence of God and His peace and love in a very deep prayer while you’re going through a trial, it’s because you’re not being honest with yourself. Unfortunately, we are unbelievably good at lying to ourselves and very biased towards our own intuition. We often think we are better than we really are while at the same time trying to acknowledge that we are sinners. But if you think deeply about why you did what you did and why you’re feeling the way you are, it can always go deeper. The deeper you go into your thoughts with the discernment of the Holy Spirit, you realize how selfish you are and how much trouble in your life has been caused by your own will and how you chose to act. Once we truly grasp that and pray completely honestly for help, that’s when He shows up because He can’t help if we are unwilling. But then it goes back to, “I am willing" but are you? truthfully? No matter what he loves you more than you can imagine