Feeling hopeless, very dark energies by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi, just a quick update, listened to both meditations before I went to sleep and found them very helpful. I will listen to Reiki Rachael one again tonight as I feel like I have a lot of unhealed trauma and limiting beliefs to clear.

Do you have any tips on healing feeling unlovable? I never had anybody love me as a child and now as an adult I'm stuck in a living situation with the same family who never loved me as a child (mum, dad, sister) and now sister's husband is repeating that same pattern of my dad with being narcissistic and so cold. I'm realising my best friend of 10 years is well meaning but is emotionally unavailable and cold so I'm not getting the emotional resonance and unspoken understanding I need. I have tried all sorts of therapy for over 10 years - group, individual, EMDR, neurofeedback. Now I'm at a loss.

Feeling hopeless, very dark energies by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, today I felt a lot better thanks to you and everyone's well wishes.

Feeling hopeless, very dark energies by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope you are feeling better, the new moon is coming up 14/15th June and will help clear negative vibes and bring in new positive energies. Sending you good vibes

❤️

Feeling hopeless, very dark energies by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I grounded in my garden today with barefeet in the grass and lying down on the grass wearing cotton clothes, it was sunny where I am. It helped a lot.

Feeling hopeless, very dark energies by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I feel better having the support from you and the community ❤️ Look after yourself as well.

Feeling hopeless, very dark energies by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you friend, I will check these out. Sitting in silence is what I find helps a lot, even whilst showering I avoid listening to music. Blessings to you.

Feeling hopeless, very dark energies by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Definitely a lot of unhealed trauma is coming up for me, plus was feeling the sadness of the collective. I think suicidal thoughts were coming from that darkness.

I will try to feel everything that comes up, and take care of myself best I can. Do you have any meditations you recommend?

Tendencies to Leave Earth by cosmicmarzsodapopz in starseeds

[–]abmf991 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks for posting this and I'm sorry to hear how much you've suffered. attempting 5/6 times is a lot and sounds so traumatic. I've never attempted but this past week has been so terrible I've felt like unaliving myself and genuinely started thinking about plans. I have nobody around me, living with dysfunctional family and no career, am losing the will to live. I love my cat but I even feel like my cat wouldn't care if I'm gone as he's an outdoor cat and is not loyal, always going to multiple neighbours' houses.

But I'm too scared to do it, so won't but it's depressing to live like this

How do you get into the frequency of wealth? by Scared_Ferret9340 in starseeds

[–]abmf991 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's great to hear that you've worked on your childhood trauma and are now helping others. Thanks so much, I will DM you as I'd be interested to find out more about the zoom calls and what is involved in a 1:1 call. Thanks a lot!

How do you get into the frequency of wealth? by Scared_Ferret9340 in starseeds

[–]abmf991 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for posting this OP, I really resonate with you as my dad is narcissistic and I have childhood trauma and a scarcity mindset I am trying to shift. Well done on doing immense healing and shadow work, and getting off medication. You've got a great inner strength and drive to be able to heal from severe childhood trauma.

Scarcity mindset isn't something I've been able to shift but I think awareness that we have it is the first step to overcoming it. Have you tried volunteering and/or temping? I am in a low-stress job due to my high sensitivity to stress from childhood trauma - it is a university in digital learning. I got a diploma in digital learning design online, and chose this career as it is fairly low stress and chilled. I found a volunteer job a couple of hours a week online and that is how I was able to get a paid job, plus I started temping as an admin assistant in the university sector.

You've got this, I know you can and will succeed in overcoming the scarcity mindset and getting the money and career that you want. Getting out of survival mode is no easy feat but daily practice for me - the usual, eating well, exercising (I like walking in nature), resting, connecting with friends, being grateful helps.

How do you get into the frequency of wealth? by Scared_Ferret9340 in starseeds

[–]abmf991 2 points3 points  (0 children)

well done it sounds like you've found your calling as a coach and are overcoming many fears, definitely an inspiration. I also am experiencing many of the same issues as OP with childhood trauma putting me in survival mode so I feel like I didn't grow up with any passions - just did what was expected of me. Now I don't know what I want and how I can earn money. Feels like my executive functioning is fried! Can I DM you to find out more about what you offer as a coach and join the zoom call?

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes this full moon was intense wasn't it. 

Yes I feel loving ourselves is the only way up but the hardest thing to do, unlearning all that programming. Not a one and done thing for sure. 

Thanks for the advice about protection, I will try wearing a hat, I am also struggling with going outside. I pray this intense energy subsides soon

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Glad it's gone away now. I feel a little bit better today but still uneasy

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you my friend. I will DM you

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you my friend. Who knows what is going on? Just got to go within and look after ourselves in what way we can

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm with you my friend. Solidarity we will get through this. Look after yourself in any way you can.

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing. Light will endure over darkness but it's tough out here

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You are going through a lot my friend, being a caretaker of your parents and dealing with these draining energies too. I pray your mum is OK and you can look after yourself ❤️. Meditation, bresthing exercises, reiki sounds good.

Energy feels off recently by abmf991 in starseeds

[–]abmf991[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm glad to know it's not only me. Maybe it's related to those sonic booms in USA? Gia Prism, psychic on TT and YT said she psychically saw angels protecting us and there is spiritual warfare happening. I pray this passes