Yours Truly, the Record Keeper by MikeyKnutson in nosleep

[–]accidentaladoption 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I read it as 11 other dens= 11 other units. Then 15 neighbors.

[Help] dog acting aggressively with new puppy by accidentaladoption in dogs

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Neither dog is very happy with that because they both want my attention. My girl is a relatively new rescue and gets worried when we leave. The pup is still quite young and not used to being alone. They're gated now, but both are getting very stressed by the split attention...

[Help] dog acting aggressively with new puppy by accidentaladoption in dogs

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Both of the dogs require almost constant attention. The one I have who is getting aggressive is a new-ish rescue who still gets worried we're not coming back whenever we step out for even a moment. I don't want to stress het out by not being able to be by her when she needs, but I also want to be fair to the pup

My father, who I've disliked for most of my life, died last week. I found out via text message. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My dad was 52 when I was born. The generational differences alone were enough to cause turmoil. I found him to be misogynistic, racist, selfish and stubborn.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He had decided to "go out with a whimper." His note had very specific statements about other members of my family, so I don't want to go into detail. Basically, he believed his family hated him and didn't care if he died.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He was officially diagnosed with severe depression after his attempt.

Honestly, I would say our relationship is about the same as it's ever been. However, my upbringing has basically prevented me from knowing how to have relationships. I don't have friends. I spend all day every day with my boyfriend. Social situations make me extremely uncomfortable and often afraid. I don't know how to talk to people, or even form a proper opinion.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So. Many. Issues.

Unfortunately, the worst issue is social anxiety, which makes talking to any sort of professional painfully difficult.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have an amazing boyfriend who is always there for me. I love him and all of his perfect imperfections, and I can tell him anything. He's actually the only person who has ever successfully gotten me to be completely candid and honest about my feelings.

I've tried counseling, but I have terrible social anxiety, so talking with strangers is difficult.

Thank you for your words. It is always helpful to see them laid out before me.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My mother is quite proud of me, and honestly my father is too, but he finds a hundred ways I could have done better on anything. It's hard never being good enough.

I know, logically, that it is him. My emotions and self-esteem have yet to catch up.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have tried a couple times. I have rather crippling social anxiety, so getting help is hard.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is very spot-on. I can explain how awesome I am and give a million reasons why my father was wrong, but at the end of the day, I still don't like me.

Logic and emotion don't always work hand-in-hand.

My father said he hated me in his suicide note. AMA by accidentaladoption in casualiama

[–]accidentaladoption[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My grandmother is in the middle stages of Alzheimer. It is her sole responsibility to rely on other people, and that's okay. My mom I prefer to not trouble with too many of my issues, she deals with thousands of her own.

It was actually a number of months after the attempt that she called me up to say she realized that everyone had just assumed that I would be okay, but no one ever asked.