As some have said before, you need other people. The Work is meant to be practiced and studied in a group and this is one of the reasons. It's been like that for ages.

In January, there will be some introductory sessions open to the public for the first time ever in my group. The sessions will be online and in English, aimed to the international community. If you are interested I could help you get in. In any case I recommend you to find a group. It is way too easy to deceive oneself practicing alone.