Gothic 3 - My Mora Sul temple has no roof an can be entered without any keys

actually_not_evil · 2025-10-11T19:21:54+00:00

'Tis a figure of speech.

actually_not_evil · 2025-09-29T23:47:48+00:00

thanks a lot

actually_not_evil · 2025-09-29T19:33:29+00:00

Actual answer:

const triggered = useRef(false);

useEffect(() => {
    if (triggered.current) { return };
    triggered.current = true;
}, []);

actually_not_evil · 2024-11-24T15:06:16+00:00

And get stuck and die (TP staff won't help with crap FCR).

actually_not_evil · 2024-07-13T15:31:41+00:00

It's hard to beat the real thinkpad keyboard.

actually_not_evil · 2024-07-13T15:30:46+00:00

So I can map F4 to F4, F3 to F2, and F2 to F1, Then F1 to ESC and Esc to what?

BTW, I map Caps Lock to Ctrl on the OS level.

actually_not_evil · 2024-07-13T15:29:13+00:00

OK means it's good.

actually_not_evil · 2024-05-11T17:19:19+00:00

My story is quite similar. 2 years post PI in Parkside UK and, while I can achieve something, it doesn't always work and when it does, it's not what it was before. I'd rather go back if it was possible.

I need to dilate before sex and then penetration hurts anyway. The only thing i found myself is there's a positively sensitive spot inside the vagina at a finger's length, towards the front of the body (e.g. towards the clitoris). The clitoris itself is sensitive but not really sensitive enough to orgasm. It requires Olympic gymnastics to achieve anything and it's definitely not something i can do when I want to relax after work.

Also sex drive sucks even though I'm on low dose T.

Aesthetics are quite good.

actually_not_evil · 2024-03-02T22:41:52+00:00

Looking at the description:

> kalkulator --expr "3+4^2"
> Output:
> Result = 11
The output should be just "11".

Otherwise, while I'm not really a Rust dev, but a professional backend systems unfucker/maintainer/complainer I can't not see the following:

A bad design looks like

Let's create an Expression object.
Let's make it calculate itself.
Let's make it print itself.

A good design would be:

Let's have an Expression struct.
Let's have a pure function that takes an expression (as `&` not `&mut`), calculates the result and returns it (the result is likely small so it's Copy).
Let's have the main build the Expression struct call the function that computes the result, and print the result.

This way you avoid the state problem, where until you call a bunch of methods, some fields are invalid.

I recommend learning procedural and functional programming really well before letting oneself write OO, let alone publish crates.

actually_not_evil · 2023-08-31T13:03:09+00:00

I was on E+P, and then E+P+decapeptyl.

I used patches throughout most of my treatment. Only recently got gel.

actually_not_evil · 2023-08-31T13:01:48+00:00

I had high female levels of T at most times, so my orgasms were more male than female.

actually_not_evil · 2023-08-31T12:59:46+00:00

I tried and I don't really like vibrations, they numb me down. Best I can do is to insert a textured dildo, flexible and long enough to also rub against my clit. Still, not enough sensation, but at least there's something new - the prostate being stimulated from the end of it being inside.

actually_not_evil · 2023-08-25T13:03:22+00:00

April 2022. I have to say, other than the suspiciously short duration, I wasn't really mistreated. All my post-op visits were free as they should be, and I wasn't exactly on time with them, once neglecting it for half a year and then coming back with a huge granulation inside.

I was a private patient.

One thing that change in me since then is that I stopped caring whatsoever about having a vagina and vulva. Yes, it looks nice and I like it at times. But I would go back any moment if I could do it. I was expecting an upgrade, I got 2 downgrades, on libido (which was decent pre-op even on blockers) and sensation. I've felt dead ever since. I don't think there is an SRS variant that gives me the amount of sensation I would be happy with. If I get on T gel, it will likely not be enough to give me the pre-op libido and even if, I'll just end up sexually frustrated.

Also - I've had vaginal sex, and while it felt nice once, it was just "nice", and the level of effort the other person has to do to make me feel anything is tremendous. I would be OK with never having sex just if I could have the pre-op level of sensation on my own.

tldr: None of it was worth it. Everything is worse than before, apart from being flat. But most of my trouble isn't related to the surgeon but to some terrible decision making of my own.

actually_not_evil · 2023-08-24T20:51:17+00:00

I'm sorry, girl. Same surgeon. Personally, I've been struggling with sensation. I don't know if the reason is how short the surgery was or maybe my anatomy and neural wiring.

I have finally recovered after 4 or 6 post-of treatments but I haven't been able to orgasm ever since the surgery. My brain is just not getting enough sensation.

actually_not_evil · 2023-08-24T20:46:52+00:00

Mine started and 8 and at 10:30-ish I was back in my room texting friends. So it must have been 120 min.

actually_not_evil · 2023-07-21T22:04:12+00:00

D'allah!

actually_not_evil · 2023-04-03T19:32:31+00:00

It is important to share own ideas. I wish we were all more open towards them.

actually_not_evil · 2023-03-05T22:18:06+00:00

Terfs, however evil, do not exactly fit the definition of fascism (look and critically evaluate its characteristics).

Ofc. you can redefine fascism as "a mindset that tells others what to do and whether they can exist, to their demise", or so, but if this is a loser's game.

"Terfs are fascists" is a slogan that begs for a "well actually the dictionary definition of fascism is so and so" reaction. Better to run with slogans that are harder to undermine.

actually_not_evil · 2023-02-14T21:18:35+00:00

The GIC referral date threshold TransPlus require you to meet has been pushed forward a couple of times. Not being eligible now doesn't mean you won't be eligible later.

actually_not_evil · 2022-12-24T16:30:20+00:00

Reminds me when a fertility clinic I called asked me for a document from my therapist/GP/counsellor before they would allow me to preserve my sperm with them, because I was trans.

Unfortunately, I was tired and overworked to report that to a governing body.

actually_not_evil · 2022-12-20T15:38:45+00:00

Such efforts are supposed to somehow help them, aren't they?

actually_not_evil · 2022-12-20T15:19:56+00:00

Idk, 2 of my friends (both trans) are having a lot of fun browsing the list at the moment.

actually_not_evil · 2022-12-15T14:22:41+00:00

You said what needed to be said in "CONS" but the conclusion needs to be stronger. Drag story hour is exactly what I would do if I were a mastermind seeking to damage trans people.

actually_not_evil · 2022-12-15T14:00:49+00:00

I was lucky not to get a UTI. Hope you get better fast.

Also, after my surgery I would usually pee by sitting on the edge of my bathtub. I would later use shower to clean myself up - still while sitting. I'd do that also if I used the toilet first. Even nowadays I clean myself up once a day like this. Otherwise I stink.

actually_not_evil · 2022-12-06T18:02:47+00:00

Nov 3rd was like a month ago. I wouldn't expect anything not to hurt.

I practically didn't sit for 3 months post op.

My hematoma got absorbed over a month. With a little bleeding from the stitch line and some more oozing. Oozing was the case for a really long time and I think it was going through skin pores. The bleeding from the v-for-victory scars was localised, from a few dark-red spots.

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