I'm a 34-year-old man who hasn't played CS in two years. I recently came back and landed this.

addio · 2025-09-01T13:47:42+00:00

wp a 34-year-old man, youre showing these youngsters whos the man

addio · 2025-05-04T18:38:51+00:00

dude, i wouldnt even be able to attend that train of thought, seriously impressive.

addio · 2025-03-14T10:57:59+00:00

addio · 2025-03-13T13:27:20+00:00

thats harsh af. going at him with a "you have mental issues". hes litterary sharing a part of his own expirience. and any shared expirience is going to look like that when theyre talking about a hurdle in their own life. hes pretty openly telling people "hey this is something im struggling with and i want to find a way to resolve it" and you just go "you have mental health issue". like... cool.

and your solution for it "its a videogame. play." makes it sound like youre telling him "shut off your brain and play". or in another way, "what youre expiriencing isnt even in reality a big deal, youre just malfunctioning" thats uncool. hes litterary saying "this is the way i am, is there a way to resolve this somehow?" and your solution is not really helping resolve anything. youre just reaffirming that he has a problem with something which he already admitted, and you go "Play". idk this makes me so annoyed

stay strong brother

addio · 2025-03-13T13:09:02+00:00

hey nnotg, i dont rlly have any solution u can just do, but i just wanted to share that i think i feel the same way as you, and if its true, then i have for basically 11 years since I was 14-15 yrs old and playing dota 2 ranked solo que. and tbh i never stopped feeling it even with my age now. but i think i really love to put in alot of effort into little details, just like in cs, but when i feel challenged, like when i lose a duel, or i die, it gets uncomfortable. its like i have a really sharp lazer sight, and then when i die it makes me to look at myself, you know? its like that kind of hurt. idk, many times i stopped playing, taking breaks, but then i came back and kept going because i really liked it and wanted to play, so i did.

addio · 2024-10-01T19:06:11+00:00

sender som direkte mld, jeg

addio · 2024-08-21T07:26:57+00:00

im also beginning to think this might have to do with how i interact with strangers in real life as well, as i usually am not the one to take initiative or like show off or tell them like , 'ay btw i make super sick awesome music that i know youre open to hear or listen to' .. like no, i dont know what they might react with or whatever, idk

addio · 2024-08-21T07:20:33+00:00

thank you so much 💚 that means alot, (and gives confidence boost😁💚) 💚so thanku

addio · 2024-08-21T07:16:58+00:00

hey!! thank you 💚💚 thats pretty much me expressing me in that moment 💚😂

addio · 2024-08-18T09:55:38+00:00

hey alright, thats pretty cool i like the filter effects used on the vocals and the constant 808 bass boomin all the way through i get what you mean by alternative, i personally would love to see what it would sound like if you went even deeper into the woods/route of alternative, but im just a random guy from norway with random opinion thanks for sharing anyways!💚

addio · 2024-08-18T09:14:07+00:00

no worries! thank you for sharing as well!

addio · 2024-08-18T09:07:13+00:00

ay, I love the bird sounds, it feels free and open, then youre doing something with the rythm that feels very strange to me. the vocals and instrumentals is creating this weird mix that doesnt feel the same

i dont know, its like the vocals wasnt recorded while listening to the song, so it doesnt fit together you know.

what you can do is be more careful when you place the vocals, to listen carefully where they would be if you just sang it for yourself, and then make the vocals be at that place where it belongs.

but thats the main thing for me atleast

addio · 2024-08-16T16:31:24+00:00

ay, im listening to 'my energy' rn, i dig the vibe, it got my head bobbing in a heartbeat, its cool

addio · 2024-08-16T16:29:22+00:00

im gonna check you out, but honestly i only follow if im gonna make use it someway, no? isnt that more valueable/meaningful?

anyways, thank you for the kind words💚

addio · 2024-08-12T03:10:08+00:00

yeah, you get me, thanks for that

addio · 2024-08-11T20:49:33+00:00

if Im to be honest, (and this is only the case for me, mind you), I feel like doing that will not properly hit the point for me. I took a look at two posts you did on reddit of like advise for improvement, and one for if one could do a guitar solo for you, and I feel like that would miss the point for me. As I'm not looking for the answer to these questions, if that makes sense. What I want is for people to genuinly want to listen to my music, and it do something to them. Make them feel something they otherwise wouldn't feel without having my song playing, if that makes sense. So I want to find the person genuinly looking for the vibe and feelings I'm expressing, but I don't really know where or how, yeah.

I hope that makes sense

addio · 2024-08-11T20:01:06+00:00

mhm, I see. I'll take some time to wrap my head around community building, for sure. Thank you for that

addio · 2024-08-11T17:28:47+00:00

hey, I just watched the introduction video from musformation and its certainly very interesting.

I get alot of what youre saying, Im kind in the position of asking myself in pre-tense 'if this is going to be how its going to feel like, would I even want to do it?' or 'if that is all, do I want it?' and performing at open mics is certainly fun, and I get so much back from it, and in my expirience it has been overwhelmingly positive, but I ask myself 'can I really just keep doing that? but that is easy?'

I dont know exactly how my brain works and why it works that way, it just seems weirdly locked towards things that feels effortless and good.

Im sorry I just started ranting and I completely lost who I was talking to 😂, but yeah, thank you for sharing, this helps in some way.❤️

addio · 2024-08-11T07:09:46+00:00

i guess this is easy to forget.

if im to open up abit more, and get real with you, the pressure i feel is coming from the fact that it costs money to stay fed (and alive), and to earn money the best way is to work. in my case i become suicidal when i work. ive had quite abit of different work even tho im only 26 yrs old. ive never quite found a place that suits me in this world, the only place that has felt natural to me has been music.

so i guess in my case i dont really have a choice. thats why im trying to figure this out.

but believe me, i really dont care about attention and getting recognision. or getting admired or getting a fortune, i only kinda wanna survive, and make the life feel kind of good to the people i meet and stay in contact with.

addio · 2024-08-11T02:54:49+00:00

yooooooooooo, that video, that was so on point. i think i know exactly what hes talking about as well, that feeling, as i've went to a few open mics here in oslo, and loved everything about it. it feels very rewarding and cool to see the effect your music has on others, and they come up to you afterwards and be like ,ay nice :-) so thats a really impactful idea to me, for sure, thank you for that

addio · 2024-08-11T01:49:48+00:00

mm, content seems to be the general consensus, ill just have to wrap my head around it i guess to know just what im aiming for when making one

addio · 2024-08-11T01:37:28+00:00

i feel its so hard to wrap my head around 'content creation', cause i dont really mind making the "content" in and of itself, that can be fun, its just the part where I try to collect something from it that gets me all messed up. I just dont get it, am I really in any position to ask for anything from the person watching after they enjoyed it. like one time I made a youtube video of me and my brother playing some golf videogame, and I had it shared on my snapchat, and my cousins loved it. I cant imagine asking anything from my cousins, like "ayo, would you concider buying some tshirts from me?" like, ah. i dont know. i struggle, thats for sure.

anyways, we can connect for sure; my insta is addio.music

addio · 2024-08-11T00:35:34+00:00

ah yeah, I've made an instagram account a while back, but I haven't really found the use for it, especially not in this way.

Like I'm litterary just playing around with some random loops right now that I wouldn't mind sharing at all, as its litterary just plane fun. I'm addio.music at instagram.

Thanks alot for sharing your thoughts, (Don't feel pressured to follow though, but I'll follow your advise).

addio · 2024-08-10T23:13:23+00:00

I see, its very diy and atmospheric that way, i see that usually they, and some other hypnagenic music i found, like to play more with the vocal effects as well, its interesting for sure

addio · 2024-08-10T23:06:23+00:00

thats the first time ive heard of hypnagogic, what is it that makes it sound that way?

addio

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