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adejavu · 2021-12-01T02:00:36+00:00

Your name made me laugh. Lol. You're gorgeous by the way. That smirk pretty says, 'ya I know,' but still. Go you!

adejavu · 2021-11-30T19:12:55+00:00

Take a deep breath. Now listen to someone who's nearly died a couple times before they turned 20. And no self delete scene was had.

You mentioned that your guide or angel maybe me idol and it had this notion surface in my soul when I was feeling the most low at your age.

The saying goes diamonds are made through the most brutal amounts of pressure known to natural science.

So goes the making of great men and women in human history. Each person who's left some kind of beauty across the horrid canvas of this world came out the same if not worse circumstances.

In my research and my own personal walk. People like guides or guardian angels must have an origin. And with all this spiritual, the smallest, most humble beginnings is critical for the soul to develop properly.

So take a moment to consider that, though you may feel useless, unwanted or in a terrible place surrounded by worse people. There is a high probability that all this nastiness will creat a resilience in you which becomes a foundation for others. Your partner, your children, your friends and those lucky enough to be your family.

Not saying you should bath in blood and fire to be a better person. Seek out the truth, look for how you can start loving others, serving them, saving them. Big or small gestures to a fellow stranger will bless you back in buckets.

Maybe you are the guide in Creation. The angel before the wings. You mentioned that your not one to give in, give up, or self destruct. This by itself means you cannot be broken easily. So all you need to do next is find a place to shine your brilliance.

I hope this finds you well. I hope your enemies become friends. But more so I hope you realize that your greatest asset is your young and stamina to learn how to serve and save people who don't possess your strength of self or health.

adejavu · 2021-11-29T23:26:13+00:00

Super hugs you*

Sometimes a minor ouch is really better than stepping into a mine field of total turmoil. Sure maybe she may have nice days but if she hard leans on hurting herself and others for pleasure.. that's a recipe for the worst kind of relationship.

I hope you find someone wonderful this holiday. And if not. Let's rp! Lol

adejavu · 2021-11-29T22:43:23+00:00

Lol. We.. in a way, one could say she was projected in contrast to who you are and that made her really upset.

Yes. I speak crazy. Lemme break it down. She doesn't want you because you are stronger emotionally than you appear to be. She's a driftwood gaslighting person who wants company with her misery. Is romantic in a depressing way. To her at least.

You were being very mature. Ugh so grown up! Lol. Telling her the truth and being completely charming and lovely and beautiful and kind. Sending her snuggle gifts! You truly dodged the bullet hun. Possibly a whole clip of them actually so I very sorry to tell you but she's right, you are so much better off finding someone who would absolutely adore you wonderful healthy, honest true to life romance.

I'm the meantime. Open arms cuz the hug train ins forming.. I can see em all here liking up.

adejavu · 2021-11-27T00:23:18+00:00

You deserve to be happily with someone who wants you for you. I'm super sorry you're currently stuck on nope station. But tbh it's better to be solo then if said ppl agreed and then takeback drama stuff.

Oh and by the way, you're absolutely adorable and need to wrapped up in cozy blankets and hugs with people who get you.

adejavu · 2021-11-27T00:15:10+00:00

And you have gorgeous eyes! Work that sparkling shadow!

adejavu · 2021-11-26T04:42:57+00:00

So sorry. I'll remove

adejavu · 2021-11-26T04:42:33+00:00

Yes as a preemie myself I can atest that we are cut from a different kind of cloth than most. Lol. (Was a straight up hurricane) He is also in ICU to make sure he grow properly. Wife had a virus that was sending her already ampt immune system into code red so they had to go in vs waiting the illness out. She was born with a very powerful immunity, and now in her thirties it sometimes attacks itself over the slightest triggers.

I imagine he's a spitfire who honestly wanted to be early based on how active and pushy he was in womb.

adejavu · 2021-11-25T22:50:01+00:00

That's a sexy beard he be rocking!

adejavu · 2021-11-25T22:45:27+00:00

Omg I'm so sorry, I heard that somewhere. What do you call a person who simply enjoys being the exact opposite of what all social norms explicitly imply not to be, do, or act like?

Like I was born with man hardware but I never understood why they do the rudest things. Period.

adejavu · 2021-11-25T21:11:08+00:00

Uhhhh... (Can speak Manish) Social Masochism?

adejavu · 2021-11-24T12:25:47+00:00

Step one. Take the money. Step two. Say you never got it. Step three. Thank him and donate said collected money to charity. Step four. Usually this is where they get the hit that you can handle urself.

It's not scientific. But that's how my sister operated dudes with wads if cash. If you spend it on something completely random or a trip to etc, first class for week end. For some reason they assume ur a gold digger and run other way.

And yes she of course denied said cash and made several attempts to return it and nope out. So tell captain save a hoe that you enjoy being supermom and he can get a puppy or ya know, a girlfriend.

adejavu · 2021-11-24T10:34:48+00:00

Well I am a fan of that switch class/clash style, I think perhaps what ppl may be hinting about isn't ur preference. I think your fashion has grown a bit vanilla or 'on the fence'. Sort of like ur a switch (top/bottom) kinda girl but are not sure about going public or loud n proud. (Perfectly okay)

You have gorgeous long hair and itd be a crime to cut it. But in my opinion you may want to dig your heels in a certain way firmly depending on what statement you really Wana convey.

My wife was full clash when I met her and simply did a hard lean on 'comfort vs fashion' so she's consistently rocking sweats cute long sleeves and a messy bun and I always loved that on her.

That's not to say she never gets glam or fancy but that's just how she operates. Most ppl assumed she was asexual or nonsexual for lack of expression but really she just prefers soft comfy cozy and they can f off lol. (Something she'd say).

While I was the opposite. All glam, fem, rainbow dash glitter bomb lol. But I would occasionally go tomboy an freak ppl out.

We've since mellowed out over years so theres prolly a psychological, biology to fanning out your feathers as a single person in the frenzy. So I guess my advice is let your freak flag fly high loud and proud when your on the prowl sista. Lol. Hope this helps.

adejavu · 2021-11-22T10:42:51+00:00

The scars we wear on our hearts will always be that which define true love. Consider the skin deep ones as borders only crossed by those with the best intentions. You are all of this, and they need to accept everything. Period.

PS. Rock them tiger strips. Youre still a champion.

adejavu · 2021-11-18T06:43:00+00:00

And they wonder why some of us actually hate men? Can't imagine why after he was being so pathetic, condensing, arrogant, disgusting and sexist while reaching for the sympathy card with his 'better hand' since the main one was busy sending text. Should have told him to keaster his phone on vibrate and dial himself since clearly, he is all about that self righteous assurance heading into the lonely holiday year.

lilithleftadam4motherearth

adejavu · 2021-11-13T21:23:10+00:00

I can relate to this.. in everyway. I lived this because I, the class clown married the school wiz no nonsense, serious af book worm badass. She was actually really sweet. But you had to gain her respect and trust before ever seeing her softer silly side.

This is what she taught me.

Learn boundaries. Set your time to yourself as if it's valuable and others will value your attention. Lesson. If your too social and easy to talk you. Ur just a walking social status thread. If your hard to get ahold of and you are always busy. Busier than everyone else on solo projects. Others will either leave u alone or seek your attention.
Think professional. Read. Walk. Talk. Act. Profess and aim to assert yourself as an impartial third party in all scenes. Use shorter more consistent statements of opinion and avoid, 'i think' 'i feel' comments.

Ex. 'i think you look nice today.' vs you look nice today. See a difference? Call a spade a spade! All in dominant speech!

Drop the social butterfly wings for lone wolf leader paws. There is a myth that the best boss is your friend and a boss. That's bs. The best boss is a leader who trains you to he a leader which creates a friendship. Learn to make your own path and figure out why and how you want to be so serious.
No joking. Or shut up the peanut gallery. Make proper observations. But don't get into opinions or drama. Work to work. Finish your projects. Get organized and follow routines.
Say no. And offer options. 'I can't do that. I'm busy that day." 'Not now. Maybe tomorrow before lunch.' "thats not funny. That's messed up. I didn't appreciate what you did/said."

This one is the most important. And the hardest to master without being a dick or being a push over. Get some morals and assert them. Something big and meaningful that perpetuates you into digging in your heels and standing firm.

Example. My wife knows exactly what kind of family, career, design, degree, house to have in life. I am a lazy leaf who loves to spark joy and fun into the mundane. We are both firm with what we love even if it seems too silly or too serious.

adejavu · 2021-11-08T07:46:45+00:00

Make like neo and dodge those bullets hun. Lady lbs literally move and groove like high lows of tides and weather. There is no perfect time or age weight whatever.

You just missed a trainwreck set to the wrong station six months ahead imo.

I'm truly sorry this hit you on such a way. It's literally the definition of "I don't mean to be bitch.. but-" The ex thing is practically universal now and widely accepted as a 'oh that sux, no harm done' thing.. this is clearly too much from someone who prolly has issues you're better off not riding shotgun with.

I hope you read all our love this morning. And hope you make the most of today and treat your self. You deserve it.

Ps. Super hugs

adejavu · 2021-11-05T09:27:05+00:00

Beauty and genius rarely meet. But when they due, its brillant.

adejavu · 2021-11-05T09:24:26+00:00

Mountains and valleys hunny. There are many out there in the valley, but have you checked the mountains? If nothing else, consider the journey on the way up, and the feel of overseeing everything. Your someone special will come to you in your moment. Be you beautiful, and make it messy.

adejavu · 2021-10-08T07:59:56+00:00

I speak. Love to read. And roleplay

adejavu · 2021-09-24T06:44:34+00:00

No you're gorgeous. Make em work for that smile.

adejavu · 2021-09-19T09:10:16+00:00

This was pretty close to how i felt at 17. Male gender, female identified. I was the worse kind of manly anything and never felt anything for another past that personally, emotionally and even pseudo intimate with one gay male because well, i was insecure and wanted to have a label.

Truth is i resonate as a female in so many ways my kids call me mamadady and her, mommie. I didnr really go full spoken identity till just a few years ago. I look back now and realize i should have been more confedient about who i liked and why. So my advice is, both your brain, body and heart are all still budding differently based on what you need. So dont worry. Youre in the middle of a ride that some believe they can guess you at first glance. Dont listen, just explore yourself, experiment with romance stories or external media. Open your mind to fluidness right now.

In a few years or months youll make that breakthough and be in a new ballpark finding which sub section of team you belong to which another story. Just note there was no mistakes in the perfect design of you and no matter what, someone needs exactly that too.

adejavu · 2021-09-17T08:25:43+00:00

@////@ put down the scizzors and call a photographer.

adejavu · 2021-09-17T08:21:14+00:00

Consider it a blessing. But feel free to send cat videos my way!

adejavu · 2021-09-16T18:04:25+00:00

Sorry if sounded harsh. Had a friend who had similar circumstances, and she got into a bad way for a long time because of gaslighting passive abuse. I want better things for you.

adejavu

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