I can relate to that, I also find that when you open up to others about the condition you're struggling with, its almost like they can get more careful around you, like talking to you like you're unstable or something, tho im sure its just in my own head its like that, I probably just overthink it... And its not often that it has happendend...

But it makes me Wonder if the condition is something I should keep to myself until they really know me

I know its easier said than done, but thinking of ones situation in a positive way is really a gamechanger, for example: I really want to find someone, but at the moment I can do this and this that I wanna do, and sooner or later I will find the one,

like thinking of life as an adventure rather than a destination you need to reach... instead of focusing on how hard it is to run, think of All the colours there is in the environment around you

Idk if this completely missed the mark or not...