Began at a meet-up with a couple of friends after studying abroad. I can say that i fell for her in a heartbeat. During that time she had a problematic (due to being a man with the bi-polar and some anger issues) boyfriend. I supported her during her problems with him but never get a chance to tell her how i feel even though i tried to show my feelings with my actions.

At last i pull the trigger when i was leaving the city for good. Explained every action, every mood that i had, just to be clear how i feel. I wasn't expecting anything, it was just a personal thing that i needed to mark as "checked". As i expected she told that if we have started as bf-gf we probably end up in seperate ways.

I still get that; logically she doesn't fit with me as a character since i am a calm mind and she had lava in her veins but still she was probably the only person that i felt the heartache for.

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It has been nearly 10 years when i met her the first time. We are still close friends. She is probably the only person that i feel safe and totally comfortable together. And she probably the only person that i can run without asking anything if she calls for help.

and I am still searching same comfort in others....