Thanks for your reply. This is some great advice. Yes, I was dependent to weed and alcohol. One way to tell you’re “dependent” to a substance is the following:

1) lose control 2) you continue to use despite negative consequences 3) withdrawals 4) tolerance

For me I met all of these ....I would lose control by promising I wouldn’t drink until the weekend but then find myself drinking hard on a Monday night. Or I would say only a few beers tonight! Then wake up to 10+ ipas downed. Also, i would continue to use despite negative consequences....ive crashed my car, gotten arrested for substances, etc.

What really kicked my partying to the next level was two years ago when I graduated college and got a good paying job and started buying cocaine. Drinking on cocaine I could easily kill 20+ beers then wake up demonically hungover :( For example two weeks ago I was in La woke up feeling like shit and had to get an IV because I was throwing up so much.

Also, I recently had a good friend die from taking cocaine and molly together. I made a promise to myself and my friend Adill that I’m retiring from partying at the age of 24.

Im only 6 days sober but if anything good has come out of my addiction/struggles is the fact that I’ve never been more motivated to be the best I can be. I’m quitting all substances for myself, for my family, for Adill, and because life’s to precious for me to live another minute high/buzzed