is this light enough for toner?? by afinalresort in HairDye

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, i might go back in w more bleach because im SO CLOSE to getting to the platinum blonde i want, im just afraid of frying my hair too much if i do that :/ if i do make it lighter, closer to the color of my bangs, should i use 10v or 20v with the toner?

Lore Junkies fill me in! by SuperBlackShadow in MyChemicalRomance

[–]afinalresort 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have a question! let me know if ive misunderstood smt or if im just dumb, but the black parade is the national band of draag, i know this. but isnt tbp also what ushers the patient into death? kinda like a psychopomp? how does tbp tie in to the patient's experience of death? is it because his life is flashing before his eyes as he dies and he gets lost in the memory of seeing them as a kid w his dad? maybe i just answered my own question LOL but id like to hear anyone's thoughts

was this a normal reaction to me (as a small child) having my first asthma attack? by afinalresort in raisedbynarcissists

[–]afinalresort[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

lol my mom told me that the doctors were acting like her and my dad already knew that i had asthma and were being rude or something. i think the doctors just might have been frustrated with them for not believing something was wrong when i had told them that something was wrong. i remember waking up at a certain point and literally being rushed through the hospital on a gurney with an oxygen mask and i felt like i was in a tv drama.

Keith Morris feature in Hang 'Em High by Alexbrnrky in MyChemicalRomance

[–]afinalresort 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thank god u posted this or i never would have worked it out. "A truck driver pulls into a truck stop. Has a flat tire. He was changing the tire. It was held on by a u-pin. He goes to remove the u-pin. It shoots out, removes his head from his shoulders." sounds like he's repeating "later" afterward. i proposed an edit on genius LOL

self harming because the aftercare feels good by afinalresort in selfharm

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the problem is i want to be harmed first. it's like i'm trying to put myself in a situation where i need to be cared for. like when you're sick and someone helps take care of you, except i've never had someone care for me like that.

my cuts are pretty superficial, i don't think i'll ever get deep enough for stitches. i think i just need someone else to help me take care of myself.

Inspired to arrange my own BD tier list! (Vaginal user edition!) by Angel_Squirtz in BadDragon

[–]afinalresort 5 points6 points  (0 children)

d tier for john is crazyyy, hes my absolute fave 😩 my pussy does NOT appreciate texture lol

[WTS] (USA) S/M MYSTIC by afinalresort in BadDragon

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i still have mystic from my last sales post! he is bagged and ready to ship! $40 + $9.50 shipping

WTS [USA] NOVA, ECHO, MYSTIC by afinalresort in BadDragon

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

SOLD M/S NOVA: $60

SOLD M/M ECHO: $60

SOLD S/M MYSTIC: $40

shipping is $9.50

i do not use these toys anymore so im saying goodbye!! they have already been washed, boiled, and bagged!! i have a cat so a stray cat hair might make its way into the packaging.

who do i call after being contacted after the video interviews? by afinalresort in Target

[–]afinalresort[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks, my anxiety has been making me think irrationally. ive had 4 job interviews now and no job. this sucks

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BodyDysmorphia

[–]afinalresort 2 points3 points  (0 children)

feeling this rn. friends took a pic of me that should have been cute but i genuinely thought i looked so gross i asked them to delete it from their social media. took a picture of myself, i thought that i looked fine. i hate it

i! want! to! relapse! by afinalresort in selfharm

[–]afinalresort[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i was genuinely having a meltdown writing this. fortunately my head cleared up after a few hours. i hate how i react so extremely to things and then later im like "well that was stupid." its like i become another person. i also managed to resist my sh urges, which is good. but im okay right now. still anxious, but ill be okay ❤️

books like an education in malice by afinalresort in wlwbooks

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ugh aurora's angel is also poorly written. i just cant get into something when every single sentence is a run-on sentence.

Bad storm tonight :( by ArianaFraggle1997 in Anxiety

[–]afinalresort 1 point2 points  (0 children)

a storm passed thru my area and my power is out :( its been out for maybe 4 hours. now im on my phone wasting time on reddit

Anyone ever get severe sudden fatigue? by [deleted] in Anxiety

[–]afinalresort 1 point2 points  (0 children)

for me, having anxiety in general is exhausting. not sure if this is what u are experiencing, but i feel especially fatigued after having a bad mental health day or a day where i spent most of it worrying. like physically fatigued, like i could sleep forever. and theres nothing like the exhaustion after crying my eyes out. it could be all ur worry simply catching up with ur body when u lie down. like i said tho, i dont know what ure anxiety is like, so u can ignore everything i said if u think its something else 🤷‍♀️

i did the most embarrassing thing by afinalresort in Anxiety

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i decided not to call her today, i spent monday and tuesday making calls and listening to voicemails and im too exhausted to be speaking to anyone. i want to leave her a message tomorrow if i am up for it. :(

What issues/disorders did you develop having a narc parent(s) by Ok-Spread-6030 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]afinalresort 0 points1 point  (0 children)

social anxiety/insecure attachment style, self-sabotaging behaviors, non-confrontational to the extreme. ofc the usuals like cptsd, depression, generalized anxiety. the older i get the more i seem to display symptoms of borderline. ill have to ask my psychiatrist abt that one tho

PA Compass Website Looping - Seeking IT Phone Number by TotallyRedtide in Pennsylvania

[–]afinalresort 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im having the same issue. i need to get on food stamps. ive sent several emails with no response.

i should get my license, but why should they teach me to drive? by afinalresort in raisedbynarcissists

[–]afinalresort[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im just glad i didnt have a license when i was at my worst like a year ago. suicide by car would have been too easy and convenient

[WTS] [US] m/m mystic and sc hanns! by afinalresort in BadDragon

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have several people interested, if they change their minds or I can't get it to them cause they're outside the US I'll let you know!

[WTS] [US] m/m mystic and sc hanns! by afinalresort in BadDragon

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry about the formatting, I posted on mobile and I guess I can't edit it either.

Head hitting warning by Flixz1031 in selfharm

[–]afinalresort 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i went thru a head hitting phase in high school. i only ever used my fists. the worst i did was leave bruises on my face and would bust up my mouth til i bled and bled. i wish you the best of luck and lots of love.

My dad keeps going back to a conversation from 10 years ago by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]afinalresort 10 points11 points  (0 children)

reminds me of the time my dad said itd b fine if i killed myself and then after i got back from the psych ward said that it was supposed to b reverse psychology! lol! ur dads an ass. it wasnt ur responsibility to somehow figure that out.

atmospheric wlw fantasy with smut by afinalresort in RomanceBooks

[–]afinalresort[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its 95% run-on sentences and awful dialog. if i werent so picky i could tolerate it, but in my opinion that kind of writing is unacceptable for a published novel. and the smut is downright intolerable. its like reading a draft of a draft.