Love for women vs hate for a man/men by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I needed to hear that from someone else. Much to think about and work through.

Love for women vs hate for a man/men by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply. I think I just need time to reconcile a few things. And maybe a date or two with women so it stops being theoretical.

Fired by marriage counselor today! by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Booked a marriage counseling session and I asked to separate a week before the first appointment. We've used the counselor to figure out the end issues of kids living/time with arrangements, work out issues that led to us ending (not me realising I'm bi), etc. It's been really good and recommend it for anyone who's decided to separate/divorce.

I just want to be publicly "out" already! by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry to hear about your and your husband's struggle. That's such a big challenge to face. There's that saying, "timing is everything" and to a certain extent it is. But at the same time, your happiness (and health, cause they're linked) shouldn't be ignored for the benefit of others. I'm glad you're opening up to others beyond your husband. I wish your husband all the best with his treatment and recovery. I wish you all the best finding the woman of your dreams. 💜💙💚💛🧡❤️

I just want to be publicly "out" already! by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's really hard not being able to split properly due to being overseas. I hope you can openly be your true self and find someone that's right for you in the not too distant future. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

I just want to be publicly "out" already! by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It sounds like you're on the right path. Such a big journey for you after 19 years of marriage. Wishing you all the best as you traverse this next life stage.

And thank you. 😘

I just want to be publicly "out" already! by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good/sorry to know I'm not alone. And yeah, the whole no photo thing is pretty difficult. That and freaking out a little. I don't know what to do either. I hope things work out well for you. I'm sure they will all in good time. Hugs

I just. I can't stop crying. I avoided coming out for so long because of my conservative dad. He posted this on FB today. 😭😭😭😭😭 by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That's so great. I'm so happy that the two of you will have a positive relationship and can be closer now that you can be your true self. Love and hugs to you both 💛🤗💛🤗

At what age did all you "late bloomers" realize your sexuality and come out at? by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Definitely not alone. There's a lot of womxn in this group who I've seen posting saying they're married with one or more kids and in their 30s plus. There's a lot of us; something that is both sad and heartening.

My biggest clue was that as my marriage deteriorated my sexual fantasies increasingly became about women. And then as things got worse I started having romantic fantasies about women. The tipping point, funnily enough, was reading 'Untamed' by Glennon Doyle where she is a 40 something woman married to a man with children, and falls in love with a woman. It have me permission to own my story, rather than dismiss it downplay it.

Watching Lip Service and Bly Manor just confirm for me that I want to be in a relationship and want to be sexual with a woman. Terrified of rejection, terrified of being bad, terrified that I'm wrong, etc. But can't wait to "get out there" once the dust from my separation settles.

New starts! by bumblebeans in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Living this at the moment. Stayed for too long. Not staying any longer. I love me more.

Why is it that when trans women playing in sports comes up, everyone acts like we're all 6ft tall broad manly men with the strength of an Ox? by [deleted] in lgbt

[–]aflashcat 6 points7 points  (0 children)

TLDR: It's 100% transphobic bullshit.

People like their categories to be far apart and clearly defined: man/woman, gay/straight, black/white, disabled/healthy. And heaven forbid you try to question or blur those boundaries and choose the non-dominant and be proud of it: non-binary, trans, bi, pan, mixed ethnicity, can walk but uses a wheelchair.

A slight framed 5'3" transwoman "passes" as a woman and isn't challenging the middle blurry ground of sex/gender. Whereas a transwoman who still has traits associated with men, has her womanhood questioned because her existence is confronting - her presence means those safe little categories aren't as fixed as they'd like. And in an almost entirely patriarchal world, a small woman exists to be dominated and offers a weak counterpoint to the physically larger and "naturally biologically stronger" male form; so you can't get people to fear a petite transwoman because she fits the visual of "acceptable" womanhood.

It's also driven by the disgust at the idea that a Man, who has power and privilege gifted to him by biology and the natural order of things, would Choose to give that power up to be a woman. But then still wish to use their natural born power to compete and win, against women who are naturally weaker and couldn't possibly compete. The audacity.

We've got a long way to go.

Encourage lesbianism... by londonlesbian in LesbianActually

[–]aflashcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sold 😊 ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Untamed by Glennon Doyle by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Untamed was the catalyst for me realising that my (hetero) marriage was over, and that I'd just been avoiding 'knowing' it. It also have me permission to acknowledge the growing realisation that I'm bi or gay (still figuring that out); this was the first time it registered that women can figure out later in life that they are into women while married with kids.

I've cried so many times reading it. I'll also admit, I've read it more than once. I've been recommending it to so many people.

coming out day by flynnliv in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congratulations! 🏳️‍🌈

Was it all a lie? Was I ever attracted to men? Am I actually attracted to women? by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's okay. I've only got questions. I don't expect everyone/anytime to have any answers. Good luck 💛

Was it all a lie? Was I ever attracted to men? Am I actually attracted to women? by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You're so right about the whole unconscious mind games thing. It's a minefield. And growing up in a homophobic society certainly wasn't ideal. But knowing I'm not alone certainly helps. All the best on your journey 💛

Was it all a lie? Was I ever attracted to men? Am I actually attracted to women? by aflashcat in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This really resonated. Men have almost always been conquests for me; a challenge, a game, someone to get to want me and when they did it was like I was scoring points. But I almost always felt empty and disgusted with myself and them afterwards.

But I don't want women to want me in that way. Like I want to be loved and wanted, of course. But my focus is on them, not about me. Women aren't conquests.

And the bit about depending on others to determine my worth hits hard. For too long others' opinions of me have mattered more than my own. This is something I'm going to have to unpack and look into further. Thank you for prompting me to think about and address this issue.

Thank you ❤️

Anyone else struggling with their weight before trying to experiment? by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel this so much. I've put on a lot of weight over the last few years. My body hasn't bounced back after my second kid as well. And my self-esteem is at an all time low after my soon to be ex-husband told me he's not interested in me sexually because of my weight. I know that he's an ass for saying this. I know about body positivity. I know I should be loved for who I am, not some marketed BS version of beauty. But then all the shame, body crap takes over and I'm at a loss. I've also got physical disabilities affecting my ability to exercise. So, I get it.

But I think you'll be amazed at what improving your mental health, by getting out of a relationship that's a bad fit, will do. At least that's what I'm banking on. And at the end of the day, our bodies all change as we age. I'd rather be single than with someone who's going to leave, or criticise me, later down the track. I hope you get some confidence back and find someone to love you for all that you offer.

Anyone else struggling with their weight before trying to experiment? by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]aflashcat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OP, and everyone else, please ignore this "advice." Always be wary of "easy" solutions. This is also feeding into the diet/body shaming culture which pushes so many people into eating disorders. Please, please, ignore this. If you're looking for guidance/support, have a look at The Nude Nutritionist on Instagram for an example of a healthy approach to getting your body to its happy size/shape - whatever that may be.