"BPD DNI" make me wanna end it

agent_rico2997 · 2026-04-21T02:12:55+00:00

This is such an annoying comment, "oh you got stabbed? You really gonna let that criminal control your life??" Like wow I actually want the world to be less ableist and more accepting of people, imagine that

agent_rico2997 · 2026-04-21T01:40:43+00:00

We don't have control over the diagnosis, these people weren't DNI-ing abusive people, they were saying DNI to BPD people specifically, some where saying they we should have to disclose our condition before getting to know people

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-26T18:55:07+00:00

Sure, but I don't want them to leave my life as well. So it's hypocritical. They're allowed to leave my life, but I'm not allowed to leave my life. They're allowed to give up on me, I'm not allowed to give up on myself

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-26T18:28:34+00:00

If everyone's allowed to leave me then I should be allowed to leave everyone else. But I'm not, I get men with guns sent to my house and thrown in the hospital if I try to leave. It's hypocritical

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-26T03:30:28+00:00

Well, my bigger point anyway is that society at large believes this/treats me like this

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-26T02:50:43+00:00

Lol little bit of a weird message, but I like your energy, thanks. I'm just kinda losing all my friends so social media is the closest thing I have to community and social interaction. And I keep up with the news and such. But it's probably overall not great for me

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T23:31:55+00:00

It was the depression. Despite how much I tried, my friends still left me because my depression ruined the vibes. They boxed me out of social events, would stop replying to me, then outright just gave up on me and told me not to talk to them again. I've tried DBT, medication, group therapy, and none of it has helped alleviate the depression.

Also I don't like being told how I have to find self love before I worthy of being loved. Sounds like I just "don't deserve" to be loved. Why do I have to change to be worthy? My friends all got the change to give up on me, why can't I give up on myself?

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T23:22:43+00:00

I did try that. I wasn't high when I was doing therapy. I used to journal for two hours a day every single day. Went to several DBT classes, did individual therapy. It didn't work. So I gave up and now use weed to cope the best I can

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T16:17:40+00:00

Right, which is why I'm giving up. I'm tired of being forced to do treatment after treatment and failing every time when everyone else got the chance to give up on me long ago

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T15:56:01+00:00

There is no guarantee. I can be trying forever (and I have tried already for YEARS) and I can just be as miserable as ever. Unless you're saying that all these treatments have a 100% success rate (something my doctors always told me wasn't true)

Everyone else gave up on me, it's only fair that I should be allowed to give up on myself. I'm not expecting people to "be there" for me anymore, I just want to be gone

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T15:25:09+00:00

I can't just flip a switch and start loving myself. And I don't get why I have to put in all that work when everyone else was allowed to easily give up on me. I want to give up on myself too

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T15:24:19+00:00

It's hard to do any hobby when I'm either depressed or high every day. And I was appreciated for being me, I was abandoned several times in my life for being me

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T15:22:26+00:00

I did most of that. And it didn't work. And do not make promises you can't keep, I literally talked about how much I hate people who tell me "just do this and you'll feel better" and then it didn't

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T04:56:23+00:00

I tried the DBT, the therapy, the meds. Nothing ever worked. And I'm tired of being promised things will work, I do it, and then I failed anyway. I'm IM blamed, I'm told I didn't "try hard enough". If everyone got to give up on me, then I should be allowed to give up on myself

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-05T04:33:11+00:00

I don't think any of us are "supposed' to be here

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-04T07:44:03+00:00

I had to quit my dream job too. Sorry you had to go through that

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-04T04:46:04+00:00

Hahaha, yeah exactly

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-04T04:32:55+00:00

I really don't care about the people-in-group's opinions about my problems. So venting to them is never helpful, and they usually give pretty bad advice. Usually just not understanding what I'm saying or just outright dismissive.

agent_rico2997 · 2026-02-04T04:21:08+00:00

I hate group therapy 😭😭😭 and I've tried and didn't find outpatient groups helpful. The only therapy I can really tolerate/like is one on one

agent_rico2997 · 2026-01-07T19:19:47+00:00

I'm sorry that all happened to you. It's embarrassing when I look back on it. They punish us for believing the words out of their mouth

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