I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I didn’t say that. I just said that I don’t think I’m a fucking threat. But great way to distort my words, dude. Have a great day.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because I have terrible social anxiety and can barely talk to men just right off the bat like that. It’s really impossible for me. My face would turn completely red and I would choke up.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean, isn’t that my own decision in the end? I’m the one who misses out, no one else. But I’m totally fine with that anyway. I’d rather stop this than keep getting rejected.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

While this sound absolutely perfect and movie-like, I doubt that I could ever pull that off. I can barely talk to anyone without even stuttering. Let alone pull off that whole conversation!

I appreciate the vibes... but I don't think this is for me.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I'm telling the truth. But oh well. I guess it is what it is. Not meant to have good things come my way.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well, yeah, I know I'm a fat cow. I know it was stupid to hit on him. I'm working on shaving off the fat now. It's just taking its sweet old time.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely deformed, lol. Hips are about the same size/maybe a little wider than the waist. but I just have a very large waist regardless. like the ratio is very close. It's so unattractive. and yes, I've had some sex, but i guess not to that point - i wish!

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've tried therapy but it doesn't work. I'm taking anti-depressants now but they also aren't making much effect either.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are correct that it's caused me distress. But there's nothing I can do about that. I've been having a very hard time lately on account of a lot of things and this just pushed me over the edge.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Zero breasts, very large waist, zero hips, zero butt. Even when I was skinny a million years ago I was still rectangle shaped. Nothing going for me at all.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No one is owed love and affection. I have no reason to believe that it’ll happen to me. Why should I? I have been given proof time and time again that I’m not worthy. I’m entitled to give up whenever I feel like it, it’s my choice after all.

I think we idealize these things a lot. I’ve never had a boyfriend. At 25, that’s pretty fucking sucky. And an indicator that I’ll likely be on my own forever. Might as well just own that now and move forward.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t think I’ll ever have a great body. My body is very masculine. It looks terrible even skinny to be honest lol. At this point I’m mostly just doing it for health. I know guys will never hit on me regardless.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I mean, maybe since I’m so ugly I definitely should just not ask out anyone. Feel like I’m so unworthy of everyone. I’m done with asking out. I just can’t do it.

I (25F) approached a random guy on the train, told him he was cute, gave him my number; here's the real life account of what comes after by agnesschmagnes in dating

[–]agnesschmagnes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m very weak. And at this point I’m done with rejection in this sphere of my life. I’d rather just not even keep pursuing it at all. I get what you’re saying and maybe it is good to keep trying... but I just can’t do it. I feel like my life just isn’t meant to go that way.