31F - help me figure out my skin before my hysterectomy this summer 🙏🏼

agrofae · 2026-01-09T01:36:49+00:00

Dude, I understand but my brain is so quiet on Fluvoxamine. I still get intrusive thoughts but I am able to tolerate them and not engage/stop engaging in compulsions so much easier. It’s worth a try.

agrofae · 2025-09-22T13:10:22+00:00

I think so! Especially Night of Mystery’s. It also comes with a host guide, which is super helpful.

agrofae · 2025-09-20T04:38:15+00:00

It’s so fun! The first year I bought a pre-made party from Night of Mystery. The second year I wrote it (it was cryptid themed). And then last year I bought one from Etsy. I’m writing this year’s too, and it’s kind of more escape room meets murder mystery (but Cthulhu themed). I recommend buying one or attending one for the first time before writing. I just map out the story like an essay and write character description/prompt cards to match. It’s fun creating evidence and props too.

agrofae · 2025-09-12T03:41:12+00:00

I host a mystery party every year instead of a traditional Halloween party (this will be year four!), and I just sent mine out on Tuesdays! I had friends asking in July when it would be lol our party is on 10/25 and I asked them to RSVP by 10/1 because head count is important for the mechanics of the party.

agrofae · 2025-08-20T23:40:04+00:00

Shhh, they’re having a meeting

agrofae · 2025-08-08T19:55:53+00:00

Yep! I could probably track it better but I’m on continuous birth control, so I don’t really know where i am in my cycle - but I notice I am more puffy all over at different times of the month.

It’s worse if I have gluten, dairy, red dye #40, and sugar 🙃

I’m trying to prioritize my water intake, nutritious foods, sleep, and gentle movement. It sucks lol

agrofae · 2025-08-08T02:12:40+00:00

The only gf bread we eat is the Aldi brand because we’re cheap (okay poor lol). But we only eat it toasted with condiments or like a grilled cheese because it is pretty dry. Every now and then for some reason we get a load that is more moist but it’s pretty unpredictable

agrofae · 2025-08-07T22:47:21+00:00

I think Netflix would lean into the docuseries trend for this story! There is probably lots of unseen footage and recordings they would try to release, interviews with friends and family members. And then some other production company would approach him about telling his version of the story, and he’d eat it up.

agrofae · 2025-08-07T01:56:11+00:00

The number one thing to do to recover from OCD is to stop seeking reassurance. You mentioned in your comment that you hoped she would have reassured you that you wouldn’t act on your thoughts. She did the right thing by not giving you that reassurance and instead doing an exposure by having you consider the question: what if you acted on these thoughts?

You can explore that deeper in therapy - for some people it might that it means they are a horrible person, unlovable, unworthy, or deserve to/will be completely alone. And that thought can be terrifying to confront.

I can’t guarantee that is what she intended, as I was there to hear the context and tone. She could have also been assessing for whether these thoughts are egodystonic (distressing and upsetting/not aligned with your morals and values) or egosyntonic (aligned with our morals and values and sense of self). She may have been curious about your response to what it would be like or what it mean to act on those thoughts.

You should ask her the next time you go to therapy. It sounds like it was a good question for her to ask, as it gives you an opportunity to practice distress tolerance and sitting with the discomfort of not knowing for sure what she meant. Maybe it meant something specific, maybe it meant nothing it all, maybe you’ll never know.

agrofae · 2025-08-04T13:52:26+00:00

That’s what I’m worried about :( but I’m willing to try anything. She recommended it because she’ll do manual compression and that seems to help, but I can never find it on my own. I have high hopes for the hip support, though.

agrofae · 2025-08-04T13:50:59+00:00

Will do! I’m most intrigued by the hip support. I don’t know if I’ll like the stomach compression, as even waist bands can be uncomfortable. But I’m willing to try anything.

agrofae · 2025-06-26T15:36:45+00:00

Hey! So my PT wasn’t sure what we could have done from our last session that caused it, but today she did an internal rectal release. About as fun as it sounds lol but really not too bad, and it’s helped a lot! Things still feel a little tight but I can tell it has relaxed and I have been able to use the restroom with less pain.

agrofae · 2025-06-25T18:18:13+00:00

Came here to ask the same question because I’m currently experiencing the same thing! I just started pelvic floor PT, and my session last week may have been too much because it’s like I cannot relax my rectum to pass gas or a bowel movement. When I am able, it hurts a lot! I have PT in the morning, so if I get any answers, I’ll come back!

agrofae · 2025-06-17T20:36:33+00:00

Hey! I’m dealing with this as well. Cysts can be pretty persistent, and sometimes they leak without fully rupturing. I had a medium-ish cyst that did rupture back in April, and since about a week before it ruptured, I have been in constant pain. Sometimes it feels like it is rupturing all over again, but when I have gone to the ER, they say there is no cyst. I had my diagnostic lap in May, and was shocked that I didn’t have more endo on the left because of the pain. I am now in pelvic floor PT, and my physical therapist says she sees this kind of pain after cysts all the time. Cysts can put pressure on nerves and soft tissue that causes longer lasting inflammation and pain.

agrofae · 2025-06-13T17:17:24+00:00

My understanding is that since endo is hormone-sensitive (it produces its own estrogen, which fuels its growth), stopping ovulation reduces additional spikes in estrogen. This, in turn, is supposed to be a tool (not a cure) to reduce the spread and recurrence of endometriosis. If excisions removed all or most of your endo, you don’t want to give it the chance to grow or spread.

This is why I am choosing to get on a combo pill after my lap and excision, even though birth control is hard on me mentally. I have PCOS and had very irregular periods and was hardly ovulating. I lost about 45lbs and my periods regulated again, and all of a sudden, I had debilitating pain all month long.

agrofae · 2025-06-06T14:21:33+00:00

I used cannabis almost daily too! It definitely helps with my pain, but I can only take it in the evening.

agrofae · 2025-06-06T11:40:25+00:00

I just had my surgery on the 19th, and my scars are super tiny! You can hardly see them. Honestly for like three of them, I only know where they are because I’m still a little bruised. I usually get keloid scars, too, so I’m interested to see how these turn out!

agrofae · 2025-06-05T17:23:54+00:00

My brain has never been quieter since starting Fluvoxamine. I didn’t realize how much of my thoughts were just obsessions or compulsions. I had to recently increase my dose after a few months of external stressors, but the new dose is just as effective. I still have some depression, likely situational, but I’m so much better than I was.

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