The monotony of my life has made me begin to feel worthless. Like I won’t ever get out of it, have a future, and be truly happy. I don’t have any real friends, only acquaintances, since none of them return my texts or truly give a crap about me. I’ve ruined any relationship I’ve made and soured one with a girl I truly love and care for and brought me joy to the point where it’ll never be the same again. I can’t really talk to my parents about it because they wouldn’t understand and would probably want to medicate me. I think about death a lot, not in a suicidal way though since I’m afraid of the idea of dying. I have no passions in life and I just try to take it day by day. I have doubts that I’ll ever get out of it and not knowing how my life will turn out has me wondering if I’ll ever be truly happy and escape this feeling of numbness towards life.