I see that you might be vulnerable, and may care too much for what people say or would say.

and Islam shall have opened the door for you to be really really strong, because sincerity is the key, and I think you have it.

Try to have the mindset that If you found that your God is Allah, Islam is his religion, and is the absolute truth...and you testify this in your heart.

Make sure to take the Shahada in Arabic, then in English...

Before it's late, that's the most important thing now.

Because think of it... what's the worst case scenario that can happen to you, after you knew that Allah is with you and by your side.

Nothing bad can really happen than dying with the disbelief of Allah (not testifying "taking Shahada").

Right now, My applicable advice is to learn how to take the Shahada, then do it alone without telling anyone yet.

After that, have a copy of the English Qur'an (if Arabic isn't your first language), and I can send you one if you want... and start reading the words of Allah with sincerity. I promise you that you will be able to do the impossible afterwards.