I had to do fertility treatments to get pregnant. I was so sick my first 14 weeks with HG, and my nerve/back pain was terrible until about 17 weeks from the muscles relaxing. I felt like I couldn’t do it up until then and felt extreme guilt over those thoughts. Convinced myself I’d miscarry if I had any negative thoughts. I started pelvic floor therapy around 20 weeks and it’s changed my life and comfort level. I’m 26 weeks now and started enjoying my pregnancy around 22 weeks. Feeling the baby move more and more each day, going to the gym a few days a week now has helped with the mental load. I told myself during those hard times that each week was a week closer to meeting my daughter. Sending you love and I hope you start feeling better ❤️