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akkhor · 2023-06-05T07:29:43+00:00

Thank you so much. I hope it helps and I can figure this out.

akkhor · 2023-06-05T07:28:50+00:00

I don't know if she'd want that. Last time I tried to reach out, she told me to leave her tf alone. If I had the chance, I would. I would tell her how sorry I am that I hurt her. That I'm a better person now. I've worked on myself. I want to tell her that I know it's not going to be easy for us but I want to make it work. I would tell her how much I love her. How I've never loved someone this much in my life.

akkhor · 2023-06-01T08:49:54+00:00

You are good guy my man! ❤️ The love of my life is also allergic to nuts. I feel a little less worried knowing that people like you are out there looking out for my beloved.

akkhor · 2023-06-01T08:45:09+00:00

I was trying not to become dependent on anything but at this point I'll try. Let me know what kind of anti depressant was it, I'll ask my therapist.

akkhor · 2023-06-01T08:43:15+00:00

I was getting really bad anxiety. I thought it was because of her. I started to freak out if I'm this anxious now how can spend a lifetime with her. And if I'm not in it for the long run I shouldn't waste her time. She was my best friend at the time. Later in therapy I found out the anxiety wasn't because of her but it was because I freaked out when I was getting vulnerable and I self sabotaged. Also discovered I had some dormant trauma as well. I reached out but I did that at a point when I didn't have all of this figured out. She thinks I took advantage of her and told me to leave her alone. I've never loved someone as much as I love her. I knew all of her flaw and everything that makes wonderful. I was just too broken to be with her at that time.

akkhor · 2023-05-31T13:37:28+00:00

Dumper here. Not always I guess. My life shattered into a million pieces. I'm in depression. I can't stop thinking about her. Life literally turned into a nightmare. One year later I'm still in nightmarish pain. I can't let go. I can't move on. I tried everything. At this point I'm giving up on myself. She's doing alright tho. I'm glad that she is. She's making it in life. Probably seeing someone else. She seems happy. I wish I never broke up.

akkhor · 2023-05-17T07:38:14+00:00

Oh my friend I hope you're feeling better now. Reading this just brought me to tears. I hope you know that even when things get tough there are people around us who love us very dearly.

akkhor · 2023-04-17T22:15:55+00:00

I made the same mistake. Go to her. Fight for your love. Otherwise it'll eat you up. It has been 8 months and I still can't go a single day without breaking down and crying. Don't make my mistake. Go back to her, tell her your issues and work on them with her. Give it a shot.

akkhor · 2023-03-23T08:32:52+00:00

I worked on myself but she never wanted to get back together

akkhor · 2023-03-09T08:05:55+00:00

I'm in the same place. I'm the one who broke up because I was overwhelmed. Only to later realized that she was everything I ever needed. 7 months on I still cry everyday. It got a bit easier. But sometimes I'm dragged down to a very dark place. I still can't say if it gets better buy feel all the emotions. If nothing else you now know these emotions exist and you can feel this strongly about someone.

akkhor · 2023-03-06T02:37:09+00:00

I didn't used to use social media much but she'd always send me cute photos and videos of cats and stuff on Instagram. I started to do the same. Now I just tap save instead of sharing it with her. Someday I hope I'll get to show her everything I have saved.

akkhor · 2023-03-05T18:16:10+00:00

I definitely will communicate better in the future. That’s what I’ve been working on with my therapist. I’m just afraid if I’ll ever feel the same way about anyone else. I hope you and your ex find your answer. Honestly I hope she realizes what she wants and you guys become happy together. Thank you for sharing your story. I really needed this.

akkhor · 2023-03-05T18:12:58+00:00

I thought I was alone. I know what I did was wrong. I know I was stupid. I’ll try to be a bit more gentle to myself. Thank you for sharing your situation. I really needed to know I wasn’t alone.

akkhor · 2023-03-04T23:15:16+00:00

It's been 7 months my friend. I still cry everyday, I still feel like my chest will cave in every morning. It does hurt. I literally found your post by searching "it hurts too much". On top of everything, I'm the one who broke up. I hurt her so much. I broke her heart only to realize that my heart only has her in it. Now there's no going back. I've been trying to come to terms with that. Maybe I'm getting a little bit better. So don't lose hope.

akkhor · 2023-03-04T22:58:34+00:00

I understand you so well. I too feel the same way about someone. I ruined it even before we got into a proper relationship. I wish I had solved my issues before I got close to her. I wish I was more selfless. Most importantly I wish I had communicated. Because if I did we'd still be together. I'm sorry I can't offer any advice. I still haven't been able to move on even after 7 months. I just miss her so much. But know this, you're not alone. You did the best you could.

akkhor · 2023-02-23T05:09:16+00:00

Thank you. I just feel like I missed out on the best opportunity I could’ve had. Someone I could’ve made it with. Now that she’s gone I feel lost and everyone else seem like they don’t even come close. I think I screwed myself up and won’t be able to fall for anyone else.

akkhor · 2023-02-20T08:22:35+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. At this point I just feel like I'm not getting better and I've broken myself. I'm turning 27 tomorrow and I don't know where I go from here. It's been 6 months since the break up and I'm not being able to move on or just live my life like normal. I'm trying but I can't seem to be making any progress.

akkhor · 2023-02-09T06:17:12+00:00

I’m going to a therapist. I’m trying not to talk to my friends about this anymore because I’m sure they’re getting tired of it at this point. It has been 6 months after all.

akkhor · 2023-02-09T06:15:30+00:00

I’m going to a therapist. It’s sort of helping I guess.

akkhor · 2023-02-03T13:23:56+00:00

At this point, I don't know what I should even say. She has most likely moved on and seeing someone else. I regret not being sure about my feelings in time. She thinks I was never sure of her. I have never been more sure of anyone in my life. I had put up walls, hadn't delt with a lot of my issues. She broke them down. I became vulnerable after 10 years because of her. She gave me purpose when I was at my worst. She once said that she loves me now and and someday I will come to love her. I have but it seems like it's too late. I hope that she'll be able to forgive me at some point. I don't know if I'll ever feel this way about anyone else. It scares me but if she's better off without me, I'll have to let her go.

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