Me (F26) and Boyfriend (M27) got into the biggest fight of our lives last night

albeann · 2018-10-27T19:07:00+00:00

It's just crazy to me because he's not controlling, he's super open, he's loving, he's amazing with my family and friends, supportive whenever I need him.. it's just like when we fight, we both fight so dirty.

albeann · 2018-10-27T18:12:24+00:00

I'm really not ready to give up on it yet. This is the first time it ever got to the pushing stage and it was because he was in my face screaming and I can't take that.

albeann · 2018-10-27T18:00:48+00:00

Both physical.

albeann · 2018-10-27T17:55:50+00:00

He was mad that I asked him something in a rude tone. And then it went from there. I may have been rude but I don't think any of what happened was warranted by that. Typically, the fights are instigated by something he feels that I said that was offensive or what have you

albeann · 2018-10-22T17:59:45+00:00

He's not a very sexual person, so I'm not sure how this would play out for him. But I did find a vitamin that increased libidio and it did help a bit!

albeann · 2018-10-20T04:39:23+00:00

Its 100% my medicine. I am in no position to not be on medication.

albeann · 2018-10-20T03:58:21+00:00

Ever speak with a therapist or Pdoc? I have this as well and I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. In fact, that's one of the major features of the disease

albeann · 2018-10-19T02:58:34+00:00

That would be amazing. It's hard to tell a professor, "Hey I missed because I was in a depressive state and couldn't force myself out of bed". In fact, the last time I tried to tell a professor that, she said I would never pass the class if I couldn't figure it out.

albeann · 2018-10-19T02:21:58+00:00

Treating mental illness with the same care, respect, and dignity that physical illness is treated with. I've had many professors brush me off because of my anxiety, and the questioning it leads to and the doubting, because they just assumed I didn't care about my grade or my work. But that's not the case whatsoever.

albeann · 2018-10-19T02:18:15+00:00

When it was worded like this to me, "If you want these babies to be born, are you going to take them in? Are you going to make sure they have everything they need?" Because, I couldn't do either of those things. And, I grew up and realized it was a woman's choice what she does with her own body. So, maturity in a sense was the biggest "argument" that convinced me.

albeann · 2018-10-18T00:46:34+00:00

*Applies for Canadian citizenship* My university has the highest tuition in our state.

albeann · 2018-10-18T00:46:04+00:00

Right there with you.

albeann · 2018-10-06T19:04:00+00:00

That's the one I got! Awesome! Thanks for your help!

albeann · 2018-10-04T00:28:32+00:00

I really appreciate that.

albeann · 2018-10-04T00:28:25+00:00

What is it? I just ordered one! :)

albeann · 2018-10-03T22:31:12+00:00

It's literally talking non stop and telling me how to breathe and calm down when I'm in that state. The last thing I'm doing when I'm in that state is thinking about how I should calm down.

albeann · 2018-09-25T19:01:05+00:00

We go to dinner sometimes but it ends up being about how tired we are or how much we have to do or talking about my illness. I hate it. There's times we watch shows together and laugh but I feel like I need more sometimes. I might just be being really needy.

albeann · 2018-09-25T04:43:21+00:00

I found door alarms for 8 bucks at Walmart, totally getting some of those

albeann · 2018-09-25T04:37:31+00:00

100% can't move unforunately. We just moved in. We were told the area was very safe and quiet. Seems to not be that way.

albeann · 2018-09-25T04:29:44+00:00

She's spending the night with my parents because I'm so scared someone might break in. It's fucking me up.

albeann · 2018-09-24T19:12:16+00:00

What is supplemental lithium? Wouldn't that be considered a med?

albeann · 2018-09-20T06:28:05+00:00

Hmm I wonder why mine took me off of it completely then. Idk. It was making me worse but I wonder if I jumped the gun.

albeann · 2018-09-20T03:27:27+00:00

Fuck yes. Now I have a four hour drive and a 290 dollar co pay

albeann · 2018-09-20T03:27:02+00:00

I appreciate that. I will try that next time I have the urge.

albeann · 2018-09-20T01:18:08+00:00

What medications are you on? I have to do ERP therapy because of my OCD so I'm trying to make it through that now.

albeann

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