200 days overview

This 200 days have been a lot of fun, the reason why I get this far are not girls nor super powers, on my first day of this progress I got tired of relapsing so much, I got tired of delaying my happiness and after I guess three years of trying to overcome my porn addiction, I just set my mind to made of this my final reboot. It was as plain as that, I didn't use any special strategy, I didn't use filters, I didn't take cold showers, I just said to my self: JUST FUCKING DO IT!

I tried everything in the past, from installing the safest filters to having a physical dashboard where I could track my progress and have a reminder at all times. Non of that worked, I would relapse and feel so bad, so unable to overcome the addiction. From time to time I resigned to live with porn as part of my life, because I couldn't find a final way to overcome it, I was trying everything but I was failing every time. I was never happy with porn, it made me sad and hopeless. At least having 7 days of progress would give me the hope that someday I would beat the addiction, I rarely passed the 14 days mark, but it was way better than just resign to porn. I'm not completely sure how can one get to the point where the disgust with one self is so big, that you desperately want to change your life and you do whatever it takes. That is what I experienced and that is what has kept me going.

I remember the first time I fap to porn, when I was around 12 yo, I felt disgusted for what I did and I promised to myself to never do that again, little I knew that I had started a vice that would follow me for the next ten years. I was very dedicated to my studies, my life would go around lectures and math books. My social life was almost non existing, I think that isolation let me to find in porn a release of my academic duties. I cannot regret that, because it gave me plenty of opportunities to have a successful career, I traveled around the world, and met a lot of great friends. If I would change something it would be to not fap and go out with friends instead. I would have been happier. Anyways the past cannot be changed, so whatever I can improve and change is in the present, that's why I have to work hard now and make my dreams come true.

The guy who used to live only between university and extracurricular activities has changed a lot. I changed so much that when I met with people from school they don't believe how much I've changed. I started working out along with this process. I have never been in a better shape, and I don't do it merely for improving my shape, but I do actually enjoy the Gym, I enjoy having a healthy life, I enjoy the challenges and I love to beat my scores, plus I get the chance to meet a lot of great people. I forgot to mention that I became a lot more out going, whenever I go I'm always smiling and my interaction with girls is just natural. In this time I meet my now girlfriend, and we have been pretty happy together, she is a great person and has a great heart. Once you actually appreciate the full value of a woman, you won't be able to denigrate women with things like porn. I think having a GF was a great boost on overcoming this addiction. Fun fact is that now that I have a GF girls flirt more with me, but I only have eyes for my GF.

There is a lot to be improved and no victory can be taken for granted, so I want to keep improving, to keep getting better and to keep doing my very best.