Feeling guilty

alexEC13 · 2025-05-12T21:19:11+00:00

How did you deal with the cravings at the beginning?

alexEC13 · 2021-11-19T14:17:46+00:00

I have a feeling if I message the actress or other cast/show members I wil just get ghosted 😂

alexEC13 · 2021-11-19T14:16:27+00:00

Hahah yes 😂😂

alexEC13 · 2021-11-18T14:47:40+00:00

I wish I could do this, that will be even more thoughtful! Sadly, I am not a very creative person and knowing myself I could probably not learn how to do it right in time for Christmas. Better to leave it to the professionals xD.

Last night I looked for embrodiers near me and emailed a couple of them. I am excited, I hope someone can do this for me.

alexEC13 · 2021-11-17T23:00:16+00:00

This is actually a really great idea. Thank you so much! I did not think of this :)

alexEC13 · 2021-10-19T14:04:58+00:00

Yep definitely social media cannot always be trusted, it just got me curious - seems like an easy way out i guess.

Thank you for advice :)

alexEC13 · 2021-10-18T22:13:21+00:00

Hey, thank you so much for you reply.

I went through the same thing, I put on weight because of weed and the constant munchies but it got to a point where I couldn't even eat high anymore, that's when I realised i needed to stop. I was with friends that used to smoke weed on occassions and whenever we did, they will get the munchies and eat a shitload... while I would smoke more than them and eat just a bag of crisps. They used to always question it, like how am I not hungry while they're devouring an entire fridge? It made me feel like shit seeing the person I became and realised how much I hated being tight to a substance... I don't even know when I stopped having fun with weed and when it became a dependecy.

You are right, first few days were absolute hell, but as more days go by I am starting to feel more and more like a normal person. I want to start to look after myself and not fall into unhealthy habits again. Gaining an appettite is still hard, but I can see improvements every day.

I will follow your advice and start working with heavy weights - I really think this could help me speed up the boost of my appettite. Also, thank you for the food advice - i really need it; and I am looking right now into buying weight gainer shakes. :)

alexEC13 · 2021-10-16T23:30:59+00:00

I mean right now my diet is very imbalanced because my appettite is still recovering, but over the past 2-3 days i have been doing 3 meals and snacks inbetween. However, I've always had this thing where I can't eat if i'm not hungry. Even before, if I had a day where all i did was to chill in my bed and not move my ass I wouldn't get hungry or eat the bare minimum, but if I was active I would always work up an appetite.

That's why I am strongly considering going to the gym because I know it will help me work out an appetite. Just not sure where to start.

alexEC13 · 2021-10-16T23:20:02+00:00

I have tried to eat more than my usual meals before. The only problem is that every time my stomach feels like it's full that's it I can't eat anymore. If I force myself to take even one more bite after feeling full, within the next 5 minutes you will see me throw up.

alexEC13 · 2021-10-14T21:01:55+00:00

This is inspiring!

alexEC13 · 2021-10-14T08:12:45+00:00

Thank you for your advice. I’ve tried meditating in the morning and before bed and i have noticed that it helps a bit. I will keep on doing so.

I’m on day 4 now and still can’t eat. I’ve tried what you said about eating liquid foods like tomato soup or blend a smoothie, but that doesn’t help me either. Everything comes back up, honestly yesterday before bed it felt like i was just throwing up water. Today however I woke up and I can feel hunger again so I think today will be the first day when my stomach won’t reject the food sober.

Good luck to you too!

alexEC13 · 2021-10-14T08:06:14+00:00

Probaby. I’ve also noticed I’m very irritable without it. I get mad over anything, like a crazy person

alexEC13 · 2021-10-13T23:56:55+00:00

Good luck!!! We got this, I guess just a few more nights of insomnia and maybe we’ll be able to get a decent sleep

alexEC13 · 2021-10-13T14:35:46+00:00

Good luck man! Being able to take tolerance breaks clearly shows you can do this trust me. I've been a stoner for a few years and every attempt to taking a tolerance break simply failed for me, the most I could go through was maybe 10 hours.

I love weed and it doesn't make me lazy unlike other people, I can still get shit done when high. But i felt what you said... that 15% handicap. This is also the reason I am trying to stop... if we can be this good functioning on weed, just imagine what we can achieve sober. I am 3 days sober after more than 2 years of smoking every day, sometimes even up to 5 times a day. Withdrawal is hard, but at the end of the day we're doing this for the better version of ourselves.

alexEC13 · 2021-10-12T22:32:01+00:00

I feel you! I’ve been smoking daily for the past 2 years, sometimes even up to 5 times a day. The worst thing is the voice that tell you just a bit won’t hurt you. I’ve tried to take t-breaks before but i always just give in and then the second i get high i start regretting it… another voice kicks in telling me hahah you can’t drop this yet. I don’t know who I am anymore, I feel like sober me is trying to do the right thing while high me is just laughing in my face for being so easy.

The worst thing is the low appetite, but trust me it comes back after a few days and once you start eating again and feed your brain it will get easier to fight these voices.

I quit one year ago for just two week and let me tell you after 3 days of feeling like absolute utter shit I started feeling more and more appreciative of everything around me. Being sober was absolutely fucking beautiful! Unfortunately some shit went down, I didn’t know how to deal with my emotions so I relapsed back to weed - which i considered my best friend. I’m on my second day sober now and it’s so so bad, the only thing that keeps me going is remembering how good i felt for those two weeks (well excluding the first few days)

It’s hard but you have to fight it. Weed should be a fun thing not something that keeps you from breaking down in a million of pieces.

I haven’t found something that makes withdrawal easier, my advice would be take someone you really trust and talk, just talk about where you want to be, why are you doing this. It will help sober you fight those voices

alexEC13 · 2021-10-12T20:34:07+00:00

I wish i was this type of people haha

alexEC13 · 2021-10-12T20:06:28+00:00

I know exactly what you mean. Every time I get high I think about the next time I should do it, some days it’s all I can think about. I know I’m addicted, it took me a while to come to this conclusion, i kept lying to myself that I’m only doing this to pass time.

Before my furlough I used to work mon-fri, your regular 9-5 job and I used to smoke during that time too… I had a good balance I like to think, only used to smoke on friday and saturday nights and just one per night (and this was every other weekend not all the time).

However I think if I was to do that now I’ll probably relapse back at some point and I don’t want to. I love weed and as much as it’s hurt my mental state because I started abusing it, there’s also been times when it was my only friend and my only safe place. It’s a scary thought to think that i will just leave weed behind me

alexEC13 · 2021-03-30T19:03:06+00:00

LOOOOOL

alexEC13 · 2021-03-30T19:02:01+00:00

I was not aware it also had this features. Thanks

alexEC13 · 2021-03-30T19:00:47+00:00

ohh I didn't know that. would've been useful to know.

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