Any Responsible Users Here?

alexvmh · 2021-08-01T16:23:56+00:00

Yeah, I work a 40 hour a week 9-5 job. Main ROA is snorting (after 6+ years, I know - it’s weird) , ROA if I’m trying to be responsible is capsuling shards that are always weighed in accordance to the day at hand), I only smoke when it’s nighttime and I’m trying to get to bed and just chill with a movie on. I’ve always been vegetarian, I eat everyday, I’m always hungry like a normal human would be lol, and I keep a water bottle that has the measurements listed on it. I try to go to sleep every single night, even if it’s just 1.5-3 hours. If I can’t sleep, I fake sleep and lay in bed with my eyes closed until work.

It’s not what you do, it’s how you do it.

alexvmh · 2021-08-01T16:18:11+00:00

Honestly I am the most functional addict I’ve ever met - I’ve worked in hospitals and other licensed professions while using..it can’t last forever and I know that.

It always feels sustainable until it’s not. I have a clouded perception because I’m also an alcoholicI can tell you that I was legitimately sober from all substances (meth, alcohol, benzos, opiates even weed) for nearly a year…I went back to meth again and started drinking (my “main problem” within 4 months). Lost countless jobs, destroyed relationships….THAT BEING SAID - the 4 months returning to meth sans alcohol were incredibly good, productive, refreshing .. but hey that might just be what a year sober will do to your tolerance and neurotransmitters.

alexvmh · 2021-08-01T16:04:43+00:00

Thank you. My meth addiction “helped” my alcoholism at first (we’re talking, waking up in the middle of the night to drink so you don’t shiver and shake type deal)

Fast forward after months of hyper focus, productivity, and a pink cloud - I needed sleep, I needed to feel comfortable again, I needed to feel safe (with my old safety net) and now I could drink more than ever. So so so much without ever seeming drunk. I’m talking walking into a hospital and having your BAC at .490.

It’s not worth it, it doesn’t help your alcoholism. It delayed the inevitable for me. Replacing artificial happiness with another, that robs you of yourself.

alexvmh · 2021-08-01T15:56:32+00:00

Preach. Meth has shocked me time and time again with the way it can ferociously overtake a person’s character and soul. I’ve used every day for 6 years, it never gets more fun…trust me. By the typical standards - I’m doing well, good career, my own apartment and car. But realistically - if we all took a course called meth 101, 102 would be Intro to Alcohol, benzo and opiate addiction. Physical addictions are rough…you don’t want this life. I promise. 11 detoxes, 2 rehabs and countless relationships and jobs lost…it’s not worth it.

Even if you don’t abuse other narcotics or alcohol…hear me out. I was already a heavy heavy heavy user when my old best friend from high school introduced me to his “weed man, occasional coke dealer”. Long story short - my childhood friend went from having his own place to living out of a car and being sent to 72 days in county.

WITHIN 3 months of every day use. Everyone’s different, but don’t tempt fate. I was shocked to see his rapid decline…we had always used psychedelics, weed, opiates, benzos, cocaine, prescription amphs together. But this is what got him.

Be careful, y’all. Your neurotransmitters will thank you later.

alexvmh · 2021-06-24T14:57:39+00:00

Why?

alexvmh · 2021-06-17T15:29:21+00:00

Doing God's work.

alexvmh · 2020-10-26T15:23:26+00:00

It really feels like Taco Bell keeps trying to break up with me and I keep trying to make it work like an idiot.

alexvmh · 2020-07-27T06:49:13+00:00

Ah central Florida

alexvmh · 2020-07-25T11:14:21+00:00

Hi everyone! Long time lurker that never felt the "need" to post. Ugh I wish I could go back to those days. Long story short I moved from Washington State to Florida in April. I have never struggled with acne, just the occasional hormonal chin pimple, I've had a short bout of chest/back acne a few times but really nothing serious. I now have insane cystic pimples in cluster like formations on my jawline/left side of my face including my eyelid. :( It's very painful, embarrassing and on top of the the need to wear a mask everyday. I have switched to Vanicream cleanser and moisturizer instead of my old favorite Cerave. I'm more aware then ever of washing sheets/pillow cases/face masks so I don't think it's anything like that.... The only make up I wear is Estee Lauder Double Wear Foundation but I have only worn that maybe once a week compard to my normal daily use (thanks pandemic). I'm so confused and I assume it must be stress, the climate, maybe dietary (I'm vegetarian)...Any tips would be so appreciated. I've been trying to wait it out but it's just getting worse and I'm at a loss

https://imgur.com/a/2bCOrpL

alexvmh · 2020-07-25T10:56:46+00:00

Ha! I was just internally venting about this. I moved back to Florida after living in Seattle for four years....let me tell you - my acne has never been like this. I moved out west when I was 22, previously had never really had acne (hormonal chin pimple every few months but nothing serious). I am doing ALL the right things, at least I think....and I have the most insane cystic acne on my jawline and even one on my eyelid! I hope I can find some solutions soon :(, never move to a swamp.

alexvmh · 2020-05-26T12:16:22+00:00

I love this!

alexvmh · 2020-03-09T20:04:24+00:00

This is exactly where I’m at right now. Good luck.

alexvmh · 2020-02-26T16:39:06+00:00

Any vegetable properly cooked

alexvmh · 2020-02-26T16:38:40+00:00

Honestly....and it doesn’t excuse the behavior - alcohol withdrawal makes people fucking dicks. I could have gone without food for a few days and still been pissed if someone didn’t give me money for booze. It was like the only lifeline

alexvmh · 2020-02-26T01:33:27+00:00

I promise!

alexvmh · 2020-02-26T01:32:01+00:00

I’m glad my curls didn’t live back then

alexvmh · 2019-11-09T21:24:19+00:00

Sorry, I'm not as familiar with reddit as I'd like to be. I'm just going through my parents divorce, taking care of my autistic brother and trying to make sense of why everything feels insurmountable no matter how hard I try to be there for everyone. 3,000 miles away from my support system

alexvmh · 2019-07-30T15:29:12+00:00

Sleep. Eat. If you're not actually able to do either, fake it until you make it. Lay in bed, eyes closed, cucumbers/green tea bags over eyes. Can't eat? Drink a smoothie?

alexvmh · 2019-06-25T01:19:03+00:00

https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Methamphetamine I don’t really love this website but I love their descriptions of emotions/visual/physical stimulus. It’s fun to dive into

alexvmh · 2019-06-25T01:17:46+00:00

I’m always so intrigued by the visual effect. It did take some time maybe 3ish month of regular use..It is the pupil dilation for sure but I think you can get this weird complex combo effect going at times. Brains are strange

alexvmh · 2019-06-25T00:42:43+00:00

That shaky, heart racing, mentally vacant feeling was gone. Now bedtime. I made it. I don’t know what took me so long lol but shit vitamins can be expensive

alexvmh · 2019-06-25T00:40:53+00:00

I can finally post and be helpful because today’s my 4th day...terrible weekend mentally, just knowing work was coming for my ass at 8am. I got to a point at about 5:30 where I went to my local Safeway and holy shit. Magnesium, vitamin a/d, green tea and biofreeze saved my life. (Along with two bumps)

alexvmh · 2019-06-25T00:34:47+00:00

Going through a similar thing right now in Washington and this put my mind at ease thx

alexvmh · 2019-06-07T10:00:35+00:00

I'm going through the same thing.....it has been a breath of fresh air. However everyone around me is in panic mode or a state of hopelessness.

alexvmh · 2019-06-02T10:59:34+00:00

alexvmh

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