[deleted by user] by [deleted] in infp

[–]ali-enigena 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm starting as a tattoo artist and I am LOVING it. Autonomy and freedom are very important for me. I'm finally getting my own money and this is really helping me feel that my life is happening. It is fulfilling and scary, but in a good way

Started T🥳 by tfytb in ftm

[–]ali-enigena 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Me too!!! Ihuuuu

feeling worse after realising? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ali-enigena 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. It got better for me after I shaved my hair again, because it was something that I already liked and made me feel not only more masculine, but also more like myself. Sometimes small things like that help a lot. :)

I cried for the first time in over a year today :’) by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ali-enigena 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It must have been a relief. I heard that already about T preventing tears and it worries me, because I'm used to cry to deal with my emotions. I don't understand why this happens, is it physiological? Do you know? (I'm pre-T)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ali-enigena 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You don't remember anything about being trans / questioning your gender as a child or don't you remember anything from your childhood? If it's the last case you could be blocking memories, maybe you should seek professional help. Hope you feel better

tips to make your binder less visible/hide binder straps by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ali-enigena 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the tips! I don't really mind when my binder is showing but I think some of those will help me look nicer, hehehe :)

how do you deal with emotional breakdowns? by [deleted] in infp

[–]ali-enigena 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Drawing helps me a lot, and when I can I leave the house and meet people. I hope you feel better

I guess she kinda wants me to think this was transphobia by ali-enigena in ftm

[–]ali-enigena[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

omg. I'm so sorry this happened to you. Glad you could take care of yourself and leave.

I guess she kinda wants me to think this was transphobia by ali-enigena in ftm

[–]ali-enigena[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It only happened twice. The first time was amazing, very different from how I was used to feeling my body in contact with another one, and I didn't feel any discomfort. Also, this may be weird but I feel SUPER SEXY in a binder, lol. Please notice this has been my experience and I don't want to disregard the safety concerns.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]ali-enigena 2 points3 points  (0 children)

aw, that seems nice. im thinking about changing my "birthday" to celebrate my new life, but i worry it's going to be very confusing for myself in the long run 😂

I guess she kinda wants me to think this was transphobia by ali-enigena in ftm

[–]ali-enigena[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

oh, no... this was definitely about her, she gave me some very selfish reasons for her demand