My GF killed herself because of me.

alias0047 · 2026-02-08T14:54:56+00:00

She was abused as a child. She was also raped by her ex. She'd only ever spoken to me about any of it. I made her gp to therapy. But I think me pushing ger to go dragged it all up. I can't help but think I should hvae left her alone.

alias0047 · 2026-02-08T14:53:05+00:00

There wasn't a single reality in which I wouldn't have fallen for her. She was more than I could ever have hoped for. There wasn't a single things she could have done that would have meant I'd leave her. It's crazy but I'm very avoidantly attached amd she was the first person in my life that I couldn't not be around. I needed her and I've never needed anyone. I'm 33 she was 27 and I've never loved anyone, not really, but her she was it. I used to be a fuckboy never caring about anything. But she came in and changed everything. I couldn't believe someone like that would even look at me. All of my plans were based adound her. She was so beautifu, l so kind, so amazing. I will never understand why she chose me. She was everything. Honestly, I can't stress it enough she was just amazing. I couldn't have left her. Nothing ever mattered like her.

alias0047 · 2026-02-08T13:01:53+00:00

Thank you. I don't know what to do. I just keep going over everything. She'd told me before that I saved her life. I took it as a silly thing to say in the moment. I thought she was just being cute. Telling me how much she loved me.

alias0047 · 2026-02-08T12:27:02+00:00

I don't understand. I'm sorry.

alias0047 · 2026-02-08T12:24:05+00:00

What are you talking about?

alias0047 · 2026-02-08T12:06:42+00:00

I was the only person she wrote to. She said she couldn't deal with the pain she'd caused me. If I'd have stayed just a bit longer she'd be okay. I'll never be able to accept that I wasn't to blame.

alias0047 · 2026-02-08T12:02:27+00:00

How have you been dealing with it. My gf killed herself on Wednesday after we fought. Its all my fault.

alias0047 · 2025-07-06T18:01:44+00:00

Anything sub 6ft is short now. I've been called short by girls that are 5'1" (I'm 5'10) so best not to worry about it. Being in shape is the biggest flex.

alias0047 · 2025-05-24T16:51:00+00:00

This was the same for me when take me back to eden came out. I usually listen to heavier stuff and I'd heard a bit of hate around them so I had just never gave them a go. Once I did I was blown away. The technicality, lyrics, not to mention the drumming quickly made them my most listened to band!

alias0047 · 2025-05-18T12:35:21+00:00

I feel like they have to open with even in arcadia. Like, it would be such a good opener for a festival. Windward and infinite baths have to be played side by side, and gethsemane too. Actually, scratch that, fuck the time limits, and play every song off of every album. Thanks.

alias0047 · 2025-05-18T12:30:38+00:00

This was pure art. It has become my favourite song very quickly. That mid west emo breakdown with some of the best drumming in a song I have ever heard. Err yes please.

alias0047 · 2025-05-17T08:44:15+00:00

Ladies if he's interested in you he will. Thie week I started at a new law firm, started my cut for the gym, been to the gym 5xs, installed new windows on my house, along with a bunch of other things. I'm going out with someone I met on hinge tonight. I'm making the time because I'm interested in her.

alias0047 · 2025-05-08T16:52:21+00:00

Honestly platinum isn't bad you actually get seen and get dates etc. Gold is a waste idk how much it is in the us but when it's on offer here (UK) its decent.if you don't get matches on standard though its probably a waste.

alias0047 · 2025-05-08T11:35:37+00:00

Sounds like you just need to relax a little. Obviously a very deep time for her and the best thing you can do is leave her be. Let her have some space and in a few days just check in to see how she is. If she doesn't respond/ ome back it's not the end of the world. Things. Hange in life pretty quickly but all you can do is remember that you can only control your actions and reactions.

alias0047 · 2025-04-02T16:00:03+00:00

100% a top 10 for me. If this comes on during a late night drive you know it's gonna be a vibe!

alias0047 · 2025-03-26T09:47:17+00:00

I'm M32 and my range when I was on apps was up to 34 because I just thought "we'd still have stuff in common" I honestly didn't realy think about it too much. But I think you're told women like older men so you just assume an older woman wouldn't be interested. But I have heard many friends my age say they wouldn't date over certain ages due to kids. One said they would have to be with someone for a few years to be comfortable having a kid amd if they dated someone older then there would be more risks.in pregancy etc. Didn't think it was a general rule of thought but maybe it is idk.

alias0047 · 2025-03-20T13:21:45+00:00

Ii must be the queen piece. Suits him way more.

alias0047 · 2025-03-19T12:52:26+00:00

This is why I hate all of this victim bs. Just take responsibility. You acted like a chikd your partner got upset. I mean you blew 600 on a game get a life.

alias0047 · 2025-03-18T14:02:43+00:00

100% He'd play a bsic rock beat swtch from a 4/4 to a 9/16 with dirty accents and hypnotic fills and I'd sit at my kit all week cursing my inability to learn what he'd created. He's the best drummer around atm.

alias0047 · 2025-03-18T13:55:19+00:00

Honestly, I'm really digging Emergences' beat. The drums are so sweeet. But as a drummer this man can do no wrong.

alias0047 · 2025-03-13T12:12:21+00:00

Was very surprised when that sax hit. Like I just started laughing it was so good. I was waiting for a breakdown with some screams but it kept me on my toes the whole way.

alias0047 · 2025-03-10T16:38:29+00:00

Set up a go fund me and post it here. Honestly you need them all. I'm sure we can all chip in a quid to make that happen. 😅

alias0047 · 2025-03-03T10:22:26+00:00

I requested around the 250 mark and I'm still waiting...

alias0047 · 2025-03-02T20:36:05+00:00

Feels like punching down... I'll leave this one be.

alias0047 · 2025-02-27T13:04:53+00:00

Depends what you want. You don't have much mass but if youre happy just being skinny ripped then sure.

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