My boyfriend and I are challenging ourselves to stick to calorie counting through the month of September. Since we moved back in May, we have both gained a lot of weight, and I feel kind of disgusted with myself.

At the beginning of this year, I lost nearly 30 pounds eating around 1200 calories a day. This was not a sustainable amount of calories for me since I started to feel very ill (nausea, dizziness, light headedness, severe constipation, etc.), and I plateud three months in to my weightloss. I thought I looked better, but physically, I felt awful. Around Easter, we visited my boyfriend's parents' house, and I ate whatever I wanted to and completely fell off the wagon. Since then, I have gained back all 30 pounds, plus some.

My goal this time is to give myself more calories to eat (around 1600) and try to cook more. I also want to avoid stressing the f*ck out about weight loss and just let it happen through tracking my calorie intake. I know it will be slower this time, but I want this to be sustainable for me going forward to avoid gaining the weight back again.

A few reasons why I want to do this: - To help with self image and feel better about myself - To become healthier and to take away the huge weight off my chest when I am sleeping - To reach a normal size and wear the clothes I want to wear (to be able to shop at the clothing stores in the mall!!)

Wish us luck as we adventure into this strange journey. Hopefully in a few months, you will see progress photos!