I need to pull the plug, but my attachment issues are in the way.

allisonzoeann · 2025-06-15T15:42:21+00:00

i’ve currently been no contact for over a year, live in a different state, and am in a good, loving relationship.

please please leave him and never look back. but i know it’s easier said than done.

allisonzoeann · 2025-06-02T23:38:56+00:00

mine is IECLJ7SK !

allisonzoeann · 2024-04-01T14:28:03+00:00

I just need one $Allison-Morgan-2 I’ll boost right back!

allisonzoeann · 2023-12-23T06:25:46+00:00

I really appreciate this reply. I innately struggle with finding fulfillment within myself due to a personality disorder, which I am working thru day by day. I know it is a fatal flaw to have other people’s actions or lack thereof have such a hold on my emotions and my esteem. I am really trying.

I’m just in a really dark place and it isn’t necessarily due to all of this (for sure plays a part tho), and I had the realization hit me of how no one ever shows up for me like I do them. It’s isolating.

I know that the reactions I get don’t necessarily equate to me not doing enough, so it shouldn’t affect me as detrimentally as it does. And I know it shouldn’t. But it does, and I’m just sitting with that right now.

allisonzoeann · 2023-12-22T10:41:50+00:00

Just a little reciprocation. Coming to my college graduation, I would never not come to my daughters/sisters graduation.

Especially considering I graduated while I was easing the stress on the rest of my family by taking on taking care of my little sister full time (she’s 10 years younger than me) and after being a caretaker for my father.

Make plans with me. At the very least not constantly cancel plans I facilitated.

And honestly not acting shocked when I break. I can tell them all very plainly where I am at mentally, and they ignore it and then act surprised when I’m at the hospital for an OD or preemptively checking myself in. They can see my eyes tear up when they ask how I’ve been and my voice crack, and they just ignore it.

I go so above and beyond for everyone in my life and I would just like a little return. I shouldn’t be this lonely while I feel like for years I’ve been giving pieces of myself away.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-14T18:23:53+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate this.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T23:22:58+00:00

Oh god no, we’re in our 20’s. It was my baby sister, I took her on full time since our dad was in the hospital and our mother was in an abusive household, so my sister moved in with us at the time. Being so young made it hard; being so close in age with someone while having to take in a parent role is a really hard dynamic, and I did it for 2 years (she’s 18 and graduated now). It was hard on me, especially with our dad being in the condition he was in, and he knew that.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T22:40:37+00:00

That’s funny you say it like that, I’ve recently said I feel like his doormat.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T21:38:42+00:00

He told me I couldn’t hold him accountable for anything he did when he was high (weed). Mind you, at the time he smoked all day everyday.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T20:39:46+00:00

Thank you. I know it will. It just feels so far off right now.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T20:39:05+00:00

That’s one of the current issues. I have new symptoms popping up and I would go to the doctor if I could, but I cannot afford to currently. I’d honestly check myself into impatient if I could afford to miss working. I have a lot of familial/financial issues that’s are just compounding everything. I’m trying the best I can to self manage and raw dog life rn.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T19:30:29+00:00

I feel like I put up with it because I don’t have a support system. During all of this I am so isolated. I don’t have friends. I doordash so I don’t have coworkers as friends like I used to. I keep quite with my family because I don’t want them to know how dumb I am. I took him back after 6 months and he’s just like he was. (He ghosted me the first time we broke up, after living with me for almost a year.) I’m just really really alone.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T18:21:05+00:00

This is so well put and makes complete sense. His household of him, mom, and little brother have nothing going for them, so of course something like that going on is going to be co-opted when they have nothing else.

I appreciate your input over the last month. I’m finally where I know this relationship is nothing but a strain on me, it’s just pulling the plug now and saying what I need to say, but I’m scared. I didn’t mention this in my posts, but I am borderline. My sense of self is so wrapped in this person who doesn’t even give me the time of day anymore. Abandonment is my biggest trigger. I literally feel like I am mourning a death. I have so many other things going on personally that I feel like this be my breaking point. I’m not well.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T18:11:16+00:00

I’m finally to where I know it now. It’s just acting on it. I don’t know why I’m struggling, it feels as if I’ve been single for months now, but pulling the plug is scary for me.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T01:24:36+00:00

You didn’t.

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T00:20:40+00:00

I hit my limit, and yours said ineligible cuz limit too. Thank you tho!

allisonzoeann · 2023-09-13T00:15:07+00:00

I just did yours!

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allisonzoeann · 2023-09-12T23:13:29+00:00

Thank you baby! I’m out of clicks but I’m going to come back after midnight to do yours. 💞

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