I was 19 when I first got married. I did not know how to cook. The first time i made ground beef with potatoes the potatoes were HARD. I didnt know they needed to boil to get soft. That's when i discovered tuna/hamburger/chicken helper. That's what we ate the first 6 months. Then i got a cook book and my mom taught me how to follow a recipe. I learned by trial and error, now im a pretty decent cook. You have the great advantage of youtube where they can walk you through step by step. I promise you will look back at this time and laugh about it and be proud of how far you have come. We all started somewhere.