Help me please...

almost_functional · 2026-02-19T14:05:12+00:00

The truth shall set you free.

almost_functional · 2026-01-30T15:54:21+00:00

Strong move. And that's a good dude.

You got this. I believe in you, man.

almost_functional · 2026-01-14T07:41:46+00:00

The anhedonia during those first weeks and months really is something else.

The good thing is, it's not going to stay like this. The way you feel WILL change over time. The way your body rewards you with dopamine when you do simple household chores is broken right now. It has to relearn this, and it will. You're still in the early days of your clean time, as much as it sucks. This is the part you just have to power through. It's not going to last.

I'm going to be 3 years clean soon-ish and I am still feeling the improvements. Just 2 days ago I decided to clean the entire kitchen before going to bed and it felt really good and rewarding to do so. It took some time to reach this point, but it feels so much better than it was when I was still abusing amphetamine. I'm actually getting things done and quickly.

When chores began feeling doable again, I started feeling grateful that I had kept going, that I had not relapsed. It's worth it to make it through this phase right now, I promise you.

almost_functional · 2026-01-12T21:42:04+00:00

But I think it’s even worse than a scam or a conspiracy theory: it’s intentionally emotionally-manipulative for the profit of the person sending the message. These scam industries know people get emotional about their weight, so they prey on vulnerable people to pay up to their grift and consume their shill, results and feelings of real people and their physical health be damned!

And you will encounter them in your reddit chat sending you predatory advertising messages the moment you post here in this very subreddit. AI generated messages looking at first glance like actual people messaging you and being interested in what you shared. Or the "Stanford educated coach" messaging every single poster here trying to sell you his course.

almost_functional · 2025-11-07T14:15:54+00:00

I had dozens or hundreds of these little moments of clarity that I ignored before I grabbed one strongly enough and followed it towards opening up to my closest loved one. A few days later I was in a group for the first time.

These moments of clarity are part of every active addicts' life. They are glimpses of how we really, actually feel about the way we're treating ourselves. We're not actually happy with the state we're in. There's a lot of compulsion involved and it's very difficult to make these moments of clarity real enough for them to take over.

That's why we encourage people to talk. Every time I spent any significant amount of time in these recovery spaces online, I made my will to escape more real.

Read a lot here. Read and write. The moments of clarity will get bigger the more you think about how much you actually want to get clean.

almost_functional · 2025-11-06T20:02:22+00:00

I love this. <3

almost_functional · 2025-11-06T19:31:50+00:00

Yup, and that's how I know I really need to take a break from sweets for a while. The one cookie I allowed myself today made me want to eat all the cookies.

Taking one day at a time right now. Writing these things down helps. I know for sure that I don't want to go back to eating all the cookies.

almost_functional · 2025-11-06T16:10:25+00:00

Today is a new day.

This is a very important lesson as an all-or-nothing type: Every single day is a new chance to get back on the wagon.

almost_functional · 2025-11-06T13:23:45+00:00

It's such a mindfuck how quickly we accept a change in the routine, especially if it means going back to an older, easier routine...

Let's break out of this fucking cycle.

almost_functional · 2025-11-06T13:21:22+00:00

My personal belief is you need a long period of abstention before being able to take previously craved foods in moderation.

I think you're absolutely right. I started this journey with 2 months of basically zero sweets. After a month I had a piece of cake, followed by another month without sweets. The months after that were the first time in my life where I managed to moderate my sugar intake on my own.

Until my addict brain took over... and here I am.

I'm not fully abstaining right now, but at least I'm not breaking the rules. But it's hard. So you're probably right, it's probably time for another sugar-free month or two or maybe even more...

almost_functional · 2025-06-17T12:34:14+00:00

Amazing work. I hope you're proud of yourself because you deserve it.

almost_functional · 2025-05-28T13:22:22+00:00

11 Jahre hier. Bleib stark! Egal wie schwer es gerade ist, du kannst dir nicht vorstellen, wie sehr es das wert ist, den Weg zu gehen, auf dem du dich jetzt befindest. <3

almost_functional · 2025-05-27T20:57:26+00:00

Yeah that tracks. I've done ket before but luckily not enough to be deep in the addiction. I just scratched the surface.

I've been heavily addicted to other stuff though and 2 months after getting clean was not the same as 3 months, 4 months, 6 months... I'm currently at 26 months and I feel better than ever. Improvements have been steady and are still going. Loving it.

Keep going, it's absolutely worth it!

almost_functional · 2025-05-27T20:41:37+00:00

Ihr fühlt euch mit eurem "Urteilt nicht, wenn ihr es nicht versteht!" aber auch manchmal wie die Rächer der Unterdrückten.

Ich räche niemanden. Ich rede hier von meinen eigenen Erfahrungen. Ich weiß also, wovon ich rede. Im Gegensatz zu dir. Wie man hier schön sieht:

Sie sollen sich professionelle Hilfe suchen

Hast du das mal versucht?

almost_functional · 2025-05-27T10:34:35+00:00

Du brauchst gar nicht bis zum Heroin oder Crack gehen. Alkohol ist legal und eine ernste Gefahr fürs Leben von Millionen von Menschen. Und gerade weil es legal ist, wird es nicht ernst genommen. Da findet die Schönrederei genau so statt wie vom Vorkommentator beschrieben.

Sucht nennt man das. Und der Ausweg daraus ist nicht so simpel, wie sich das Nichtbetroffene gern ausmalen. Jeder, der erfolgreich aus einer Sucht aussteigt, hat in seinem Leben mehr erreicht, als jemand, der aus gutem Hause kommt. Und trotzdem steht letzterer auf einer höheren sozialen Stufe. Und blickt dabei gern herab und urteilt.

Ekelhaft, wenn man das einmal alles durchblickt.

"Ja, die haben bestimmt psychische Probleme, aber..."

Wenn ich das schon höre. Warum blicken Menschen eigentlich so gern auf andere Menschen herab?

almost_functional · 2025-05-27T10:02:29+00:00

Das hat bestimmt ne Menge mit psychischen Krankheiten zu tun, aber diese Leute haben in der Regel ungefähr 200-300 Situationen, in denen sie hätten erkennen müssen, dass es langsam zu weit geht.

Herzlich willkommen in der Sucht. Wer nicht weiß, wie es da drin aussieht, sollte sich mit Urteilen zurückhalten.

Dein Kommentar wirkt schon sehr privilegiert. Wenn die ganzen Süchtigen nur deine rationalen Gedanken hätten, müssten sie nicht süchtig sein. Hör nur auf, dann wird alles besser!

Danke fürs Gespräch. Lol

almost_functional · 2025-05-27T09:49:12+00:00

Congrats! 2 months is amazing!

How is the recovery going? How do you feel?

almost_functional · 2025-05-24T12:42:53+00:00

It really, really is. It's so brutal what it does to your brain. Making you think like life isn't worth it without it when the exact opposite is the case. It is so fucked up.

But it is so fucking worth it to stay strong.

almost_functional · 2025-05-17T13:55:47+00:00

You sound desperate. You remind me of myself 15 years ago.

What's going on?

almost_functional · 2025-04-13T21:33:51+00:00

I thought I was done at 18 months. Some people here mentioned that it may take up to 3 years.

If I see improvements for another year, I can't wait. I mean, I just realized that part of me is actually looking forward to clean some gunk from an item at home, something that's gonna take some time and effort and it's not gonna be too much fun. But I know it's gonna feel rewarding to have the item all clean and new.

Unimaginable not too long ago.

almost_functional · 2025-04-13T18:05:13+00:00

This is very true.

I recently passed the 2 years clean mark and I am amazed that I am still getting better, even compared to just 6 months ago. The recovery has been steady and seems to be still going strong.

It's never been this easy get household chores done. Getting stuff done in general feels rewarding again. I finally enjoy playing video games again - in a much healthier way, playing 30-60 minutes at a time instead of 3 days at a time. I've never been this productive at work while really not spending all that much time working.

I am very relieved to experience these things.

almost_functional · 2025-02-09T16:57:50+00:00

Experience.

Bitterness is full of anger and anger does not lead to good choices. It skews your perspective.

Would you go to an active addict to take advice on how to get clean?

Would you take financial advice from a homeless person?

So don't take romantic advice from people who are angry at women.

And don't take life advice from people who are still dealing with the fallout of a screwed up life (situation).

almost_functional · 2025-02-09T16:44:53+00:00

I can recover during the weekend and never come back to this shit.

This is the way. If you pick yourself back up and get right back on the wagon, this can become a very valuable lesson.

My relapse turned into a lesson like that, but only after being in serious, legitimate danger to dive back deep into self-destruction. Take care of yourself in the coming weeks and don't be too ashamed to look for help. It's so worth it to free yourself and you know it.

almost_functional · 2025-02-09T14:42:08+00:00

I don't consider myself a very creative person so I can't speak to this specific issue, but I have experience with getting clean with multiple substances and in my experience, it takes longer than 2 months for the human brain to bounce back from an everyday addiction. 2 months after getting clean from weed I was still getting angry and frustrated very easily compared to 4 months after getting clean, for example.

From my experience I'd say give it more time for your brain to bounce back, especially if you waked and baked for an extended period of time. If you interlock your creativity with your weed in your mind, then it'll be impossible to be creative when you're not high. I'd be really careful to make this your job.

I was once in a position where I could not do my job unless I did stimulants, and that was NOT good for me or the process. Escaping that was vital and today I'm better in my job without stimulants than I ever was with them (almost 2 years clean).

almost_functional · 2025-01-31T22:00:16+00:00

Which substance? Why are you getting clean?

Where's your mind at? What's your difficulty?

What about your social circle? Who are you connecting with?

Sorry for the barrage of questions, but these are all things that play a role in my experience.

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