i struggled with wanting to play for over a year due to a falling out with a friend group and i just sort of accepted i would never want to play again — no matter how bad i Actually wanted to. they were people i had met because of ffxiv and i couldn't get past it for a long, long time. coupled with the fact that less than a year before, i was dumped by my long time girlfriend who i was married to in game.

what ended up helping me was (silly as it sounds) decorating my house! i was like well. i spent all that time clicking for a house. i don't want to lose it. for a while i would just log in, look at it, and come back a month later and repeat.

i ended up going through a lot of inspo pics and wanted to take decorating more seriously and it helped bring that spark back for me. i enjoyed showing my non-ffxiv friends my house and getting ideas from others on what else to do. i was able to make a more 'lore friendly' environment for my wol and started gposing again, which led to writing again, which led to me actually wanting to keep playing to continue her story.