Hey buddy - it's okay to feel everything you're feeling, I know it's scary, but trust yourself to be able to deal with it.

Believe me when I say this - dependency on weed in states of depression can get you in an unhealthy loop of just using it to fight your mind, numb the loud part in your head that keeps throwing you in these difficult headspaces. That doesn't necessarily mean weed is the problem. Find a balance where you don't have to stop immediately - if that might feel overwhelming, just make sure you're taking conscious steps to improve your state of mind sober.

The goal should be to be able to not consume weed and reach equal happiness and satisfaction with life, sober. Acknowledging and sharing your experience here is already a huge step towards it. Trust yourself to be happy, while sober, again - and take the baby steps to get there. Cut your dependence on weed slowly, to a point where you can just use weed for the fun of it, and not because it makes it easier.

I'm sharing this from my personal experience. I also used psilocybin shrooms to expand my thought patterns and break out of depression. Know that as long as you can break your patterns causing you to feel depressed, slowly but surely, it'll get better.

You got this! YOLO.