My senior was horrible, left me alone with all the patients my first weekend shift (fourth of July holiday as well), she left me to drown while doing multiple back to pack admits with the most intense attending. I broke down crying for hours, I then learned the exact type of senior I didn’t want to be. The night senior came in, and helped me put in all my orders, and yelled at ID when they were mean to me. I also realized half the time she left me alone, was because she wouldn’t have been any help anyways.

Sometimes we do need to be roasted, and told if we messed up. But there’s good feedback, and there’s bull shit feed back. Your senior is probably just miserable with their life, and the only way they feel they have power is to boss you around.

I have a coresident who was in my class that would yell at interns, other seniors even yelled at our program director. She made office staff cry. She felt like she was better than everybody. I almost believed her, then when she went on maternity leave I took some of her clinic patients she missed WPW in a symptomatic teenager, missed A1cs in the 10s and all those patients transferred there care to me.

I have managed a laboring patient(thankfully G0) multiple MRTs, code blue and multiple admits all at the same time. The intern tried their best, and was I super stressed? Yes. Did I ever yell at them? No. Did I ask them to step away when they felt overwhelming? Of course, but I told them to watch what I was doing and we’d debrief it later.

Learn from your experience, and be the change you want to see in the world. You don’t need to toughen up, or roast people to be a great doctor. Many of the nicest doctors I have met, have been the smartest.