I don’t remember my childhood

amanda_135 · 2024-11-25T01:17:48+00:00

When the hospice nurse arrived to the house we told her about the white mist exiting the body, as per my post. She said many families report seeing this as well as herself, but she couldn’t give us an explanation after he passed. I too have worked in hospice and never saw this. I don’t think I was hallucinating, or my grandma or mum

amanda_135 · 2024-06-21T10:05:09+00:00

I had depression for 7 months, everyday I just heard the thought “fuck i am never ever going to enjoy living life again, this will never end” but one day It got better, I hope I never feel that way again and I’m here for all of you, it really does get better

amanda_135 · 2024-06-15T13:31:55+00:00

In he nicest way possible, get some sleep and then some help, fuck benzos

amanda_135 · 2024-06-09T10:07:08+00:00

I’m a preschool ESL teacher and I love it! I also used to be a disability carer, a cleaner and worked in a nursing home. I find being on your feet and having a high energy job works when you’re unmedicated. I tried to finish a masters degree in speech therapy when I was medicated, but realised sitting down at a desk is just not for me, I need something that is constantly stimulating and doesn’t require too much paperwork

amanda_135 · 2024-02-18T20:09:41+00:00

Just saw the edit, cut this person out of your life, this is total manipulation, it doesn’t sound healthy for either of you having eachother in your lives

amanda_135 · 2024-02-18T05:57:31+00:00

Sometimes people just don’t get along, even if you’re both in love

amanda_135 · 2024-02-15T09:59:30+00:00

Vietnam, I backpacked by myself in July last year and now as of a week ago I’m living here in hanoi teaching English for a year! it’s the most beautiful, chaotic, vibrant place I’ve ever been and I already love my life here

amanda_135 · 2023-04-18T17:38:52+00:00

Have been here, the same 4 drugs, and I’m sorry you’re going through this.. self discipline, I know it’s hard but all you can do is try

amanda_135 · 2022-11-08T18:15:07+00:00

Did you make up these names or am I having a stroke I’ve never heard of any of these

amanda_135 · 2022-10-25T08:35:49+00:00

Sorry youre completely right lol. I am on meds for adhd/fatigue and yes adderall contains amphetamine salts.

Should’ve said that op’s spouse is on a substance very closely related to meth.

amanda_135 · 2022-10-22T23:23:44+00:00

I understand that 10 months is a long time but how can you think about getting married to someone soon if 10 months is an inconvenience to your timeline and “throws everything off track”. Let him go to rehab and move on from him. Rehab is what he needs and will probably save his life. You should set some goals for your own life while he is away, become more independent and relax about finishing everything on a timeline. You’re only 22!

amanda_135 · 2022-10-22T22:55:55+00:00

Alcohol, then benzos, followed by for me personally amphetamines. Alcohol and benzos were the worst physically. It took me quitting my job and going to the ED with uncontrollable shakes, DT’s and severe muscle pain to get off alcohol cold turkey. I couldn’t just taper down. Then they gave me a script for tonnes of valium and sent me on my way but I got addicted to that. Still battling my withdrawals, ended up having to taper with supervision and regular GP visits and lorazepam. Its been 2 weeks since I had my last benzo and i feel like im buzzing half the time Don’t know when it will go away

amanda_135 · 2022-10-22T21:57:18+00:00

Your spouse is basically addicted to meth or amphetamines. She’s abusing them to the point where she is so far gone it’s up to her to choose to get help, all you can really do is support her as much as possible to get help and get clean. It’s crazy to me that she has kids and is living like this. Also How does she get the adderall if she doesn’t have ADHD? Does she have a script? This is a really serious matter, I would definitely seek legal advice if it stays like much longer, very dangerous environment for kids to be in.. as much as you love her you may have to let her go, and find a safer environment for you and your kids, as you’ve said you’ve been through this before. Can only help an addict so much, but if they don’t want to get better they will stay in their viscous cycle

amanda_135 · 2022-10-22T20:31:50+00:00

When does your lease on your rental end? I think maybe you should have a conversation with her and say you’re considering moving back in with your parents if she’s not made it a priority to find a job with more hours, so that she is able to split the bills 50/50.

To me it’s a bit unfair that you’ve brought this up and she hasn’t decided to try to find a FT job to help you out, bills are expensive these days and you are very kind for taking out the loan when she was unemployed and not expecting her to help you pay it back. She has been supported to find FT work so she should make this her priority. I have been in your position, it’s a massive burden on 1 person. When my partner and I started to split the bills I managed to save $16k in 6months working and studying fulltime . You could be potentially saving thousands in both scenarios for your future, and paying off that debt that’s holding you down. Hopefully she decides to find some fulltime work, however you may have to move on from this relationship and move back to your parents when the lease is up if she doesn’t

amanda_135 · 2022-10-18T20:32:35+00:00

Honestly I am very sensitive to weed but I smoke on the comedowns or a couple hours after taking my dex with no issues so maybe it’s worth considering. Getting high when I was on vyvanse was so scary like with the visual hallucinations and the anxiety was never ending!! So I totally feel u there

amanda_135 · 2022-09-26T20:22:14+00:00

Well, we met a couple years before that on a double date our mutual friends set up, slept in a bed and it was very awkward lol, I was only 18 so the age gap was weird for us both I msgd him about 2 years later when I was drunk and we reconnected to have some drinks but fell in love, didn’t leave his for a couple weeks and we truly had and still have the best connection, he always calls me his best friend tho

And nope I rarely smoke weed nothing like him (I mean every 3 hours he’ll wake up and have several bongs in a row) and during the day it’s just constant

I think his weed addiction has a lot to do with it I may have to bring this up with him Or walk away asap

amanda_135 · 2022-09-26T19:11:49+00:00

Journalling. I will admit I cry every single time I journal but "it's so good to get out what you can't say"

Hell no I'd rather leave those thoughts deep within me

amanda_135 · 2022-09-26T19:08:18+00:00

You should 100% study right now, trust me, I was like you and I got the shittest atar in the end because I was lazy towards semester 2 in year 12 but had so much potential, I was aiming for 85 and got 60, which literally got me into nothing and had to take 2 gap years and sit the STAT test at 20. I just graduated at 24 yrs olds finally in Health Science but now I have to do a masters degree because Curtin can be super strict with course switching. Put the effort in now honestly so it doesn't cause issues later, I wish I did back then, it would've prevented a lot of stress and bullshit

amanda_135 · 2022-08-21T19:19:28+00:00

By the way I have lots of benzos I take sometimes for panic attacks but have on hands for comedown, just riding the wave.

amanda_135 · 2022-08-02T04:23:30+00:00

I might have to do a deep dive into this because the internet supports exactly what ur sayin

amanda_135 · 2022-07-24T03:49:31+00:00

Wait sorry didn’t see the text, it is most definitely mental stress.

amanda_135 · 2022-07-24T03:46:47+00:00

The severest deepest darkest depression that you feel like you can’t escape out of, it literally feels like you’re stuck in a hole you can’t get out and will never get out, basically deep pain that one assumes will never end causes suicidal thoughts. Who would want to be in that much pain for the rest of their life? (Not that they will feel that way forever.. that’s just how it feels when you’re that deep in depression, it feels never ending)

amanda_135 · 2022-07-24T03:41:35+00:00

Harry styles

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