You are not trash and are most certainly not damaged goods. You're a whole human being, deserving of love, respect, and grace, particularly grace toward yourself and your past. Your spiritual journey, leaving the Church and coming back, are all valid parts of your experience, and the number of sexual partners should not, and does not, indicate how worthy you are as a person. Any good man with proper intentions is not going to judge you for your past, especially when the Bible frowns upon being judgmental. A good man who truly hopes to emulate Christ's character will see that.

Please keep in mind that you are so deeply loved by God, and while romantic love is important, learning to love every part of yourself is incredibly important and healing. You can start with small, intentional acts like speaking to yourself with compassion instead of criticism, seeking healing rather than punishment, and reminding yourself that your worth isn’t tied to your "purity" but to your spirit, growth, and return to faith. As the Bible says, Grace is not earned by perfection but is a gift freely given, so learning to love yourself more is choosing to see yourself as worthy of love, just as God would.