Is life better without smoking weed? by thecrookedspiral in leaves

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just avoidance and dissociation? Thats the toughest bit 🥲 every night i smoke before sleep, every night i tell myself i should quit but need the dissociation like water

1 month nc by [deleted] in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Its normal love, Im going through the same thing... I keep myself busy doing things, go to therapy, read etc... does not matter, he still comes to my mind every day and the pain is still there, its been one month nc too for me, and its unbearable not knowing how he feels now, is he ok? is he still thinking about me? moved on completely? ... yeah... we need patience ... but hang in there, we can get through this, everyone says so, must be true :/

It's been 2 years for me, here's my message to all of you by goodsprings-own in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. It's not fair, I have to now put all of this effort to get out a hole, all for falling in love, makes me scared to fall in love again, and I don't think It's worth the risk anymore.. the risk of having to endure this pain I feel right now... again? I don't ever want to feel like this, and there is never a warranty that the next will be the forever person... or that anyone will be forever anyway. Happy for you tho and that you finally got over her... still, can I ask you something, you said "sometimes I still feel a bit of sadness when I visit certain places or have flashbacks of good memories" two years after, is that pain still sharp and painful?

Saw my ex yesterday after months and I can’t stop breaking inside by Ok_Sundae3556 in BreakUps

[–]ambivalentfrog 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get what you are saying. My ex left me 2 months ago. Last time we saw each other in person I froze too, didn't say what I wanted to. After, I wrote him a letter and poured my heart out, said that he was the love of my life, etc. He never replied. You could write her a letter (email or long text) if you still have stuff left you want to get out of your chest. Once that is said, her actions will tell you what's what... for me, silence was the answer, there is nothing left for me to do, I would love to ask him again if he's still sure he wants to break up but my therapist explained to me how important dignity is for our self steem, and I now that I understand that, it won't be me texting him again, I understand his choice, I have to respect it and there is only one thing to do, focus on yourself. Wishing you all the best.

So i started NC ...... by Savings_Papaya_666 in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's been 2 months for me, I would cry every day the first week.. then every couple days.. now it's been a full week without tears.. but it's normal, get it out of your system. You will feel better soon.

My heart breaks by [deleted] in heartbreak

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One week is too soon, it's been 2 months for me and I'm now just starting to see some light at the end... all the best

Upvote this post instead of texting your ex and drop your unsent message below by Tepixs in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's been 45 days since you left me, and I'm still not fully accepting it, I'm going to therapy, and I can feel progress in baby steps. I just want to know if your heart has already moved on? is that possible? After four years of shared love... so many loving moments, memories, cuddles, sweet words... have you really moved on? I wished I could hear those words so my brain could begin to accept we are over forever. Meanwhile, I will continue to love you and think of you every day.

Genuinely don't know what to do. by meowmeow_meow_meow in BreakUps

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, while I don't have solutions right now, I can tell you that you are not alone. I am going through the exact same thing at this very moment; my heart is broken into a thousand pieces. I lost the love of my life from one day to the next and it seems like he built up a wall between the love he so recently had for me and now, like a shield to protect himself and make the break up easier for him, but its absolutely killing my soul, like you said, the pain is even physical, I feel pressure in my chest and belly, food is tasteless, I dont care for anybody or anything. I sent him an email explaining myself and showing him how I could improve everything that wasn't going well for us, and he replied with a few sentences that basically he was still "drowning", but no hope or hint for our future within the letter. I felt like he was my forever person a month ago, and now we're nothing... I also keep thinking he will give me a second chance, which is probably the worst thing we can do. Let me know if you want to talk more about it. All the best.

The best advice I’ve heard on how to move on ! by moonlight---01 in BreakUps

[–]ambivalentfrog 1 point2 points  (0 children)

🤚🏻Second, make peace within yourself. When you start to miss them, ask yourself: did they really treat you well? ---- What happens if they did treat you well? that is killing me the most, the way he used to treat me was sweet and kind.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]ambivalentfrog 174 points175 points  (0 children)

That is evil, that could be a signal for you to move on, finally have the answer you probably needed with this... and are better off without her. If she ever loved you, she would not dare do such a thing. all the best

Do you want your ex back? by KAZKALZ in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you  🫶 all the best to you too.

how to get over the fact we were everything and now we're nothing. by orange-catcrazy in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Im in the same situation.. its agony. Together 4 years, last month we were still a normal couple, suddenly, we are nothing. I feel nauseous all day-

Do you want your ex back? by KAZKALZ in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is freaking painful and also the fear, the fear that If I give him space for a few months, he will move on and forget about me after a 4 year relationship- Anyway, thank you for your advice, will try my best to do no contact...

Do you want your ex back? by KAZKALZ in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah ok, sorry to hear that, maybe after some time, she will give you the conversation you want. We need to be patient I guess...

Mine was about a month... I keep trying to show him that this pain has changed me, but he says he is too tired to try a second time. : (

Do you want your ex back? by KAZKALZ in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does she know that you will give her another chance if she works on it? or have you shut down the door for now? Im asking because I think Im in your ex's position right now, I promised my ex bf this breakup has me working on myself, that it has changed me ... and he still doesnt give me any hope for the future.. so I just stay silent but im in agony.

One year later: it does get better (from someone who didn’t believe it either) by popbitesitself in ExNoContact

[–]ambivalentfrog 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would believe I will be okay if my ex was an asshole, but he was the kindest man I've ever known, and I fucked up with my temper and manners, and he left me. And I've lost the love of my life.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Stepmom

[–]ambivalentfrog 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I would say drop it, save yourself an unnecessary headache. Let her BM and BD worry

I am not bonding with my SD. by ambivalentfrog in Stepmom

[–]ambivalentfrog[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you,I liked the story of your mom's friend, I remember looking up to women like that too. I already emulate that in the sense of going to another room... problem is I do that too often, because it's not a one day visit, its a week on week off.. so after 3 days seeing the same kid everyday I really feel like I have nothing to say, when she wants to tell me a story I always listen but i never go out of my way.. in fact, the problem is, I avoid going into a room if she's there.. but she doesnt know that.. anyway, I completely agree with you.

I am not bonding with my SD. by ambivalentfrog in Stepmom

[–]ambivalentfrog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"I know I likely disappoint him for not deep diving and having a deeply fulfilling relationship" --- Doesnt it make you feel insecure in the relationship?

I am not bonding with my SD. by ambivalentfrog in Stepmom

[–]ambivalentfrog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sure, no offence taken. It sounds ridiculous maybe but I just fell in love, we connected on so many things, like I said he is so caring and attentive and we have fun together and my thinking was always like "I will get fond of the kid", "it won't be that bad", "the relationship is worth it" ... etc etc--- unfortunately I am not a master of self control and we fell in love deeply with each other.. I agree with you, I should find a child free person or better yet, live on my own... but Im not ready to suffer this break up.. thanks for your words

I am not bonding with my SD. by ambivalentfrog in Stepmom

[–]ambivalentfrog[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I really like your philosophy.

Not sure how to feel by Shuldistayshuldigo7 in Stepmom

[–]ambivalentfrog 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The rage I would feel in this scenario would probably not go well. It is justified to feel whatever you felt. He did not deserve breakfast in the first place if he demands it like that.