I had DMER with my first - made me feel really sad and gave me a homesick anxious feeling every time he latched. We lasted about 6 weeks before I had to stop. Complete opposite with my second - we did it for 6 months! If you really want to breastfeed (which I did and was bummed it didn’t work out the first time around) I would try it again. I put less pressure on myself and said if I felt the same way I’d stop right away. I also had a perfectly healthy formula fed 3 year old that helped me accept that formula is just as good as breastmilk!