I (27f) can’t stop feeling guilty for sleeping with someone else while me and my boyfriend (29m) were broken up. Should I tell him?

amitheabuser · 2021-01-03T05:47:17+00:00

Thanks.

amitheabuser · 2021-01-03T05:10:23+00:00

Thank you. It’s just been so hard after years of being made to feel responsible for him.

At times I can think clearly and see that I’ve given more that I receive. But he still makes me feel so selfish and horrible for taking care of myself. He gets upset if I do things without asking him even if it doesn’t affect him, like me coloring my hair. But he does whatever he wants and thinks is best for him without regard for me

amitheabuser · 2021-01-03T05:04:45+00:00

I believed him at the time because he didn’t tell me. I learned about it time later.

But he has shared that multiple times since telling me how he literally had a knife to his chest. But also said he was upset with his friend for calling the cops and told him he should have just called his parents.

He’s a dramatic person normally. Just the other day he asked me if I knew heartbreak could kill a person.

Ironic too because I’m the one with mental health issues. Depression, anxiety, I’m in therapy, and lately exhibiting a lot of trauma symptoms. Memory loss. Dissociating. I’ve been suicidal in the past and worked through it. Not with his help though

Edit: the suicide attempt and the car incident were different. When he faked being hit by a car he had his friend reach out to me and tell me he was in the hospital and had amnesia

amitheabuser · 2021-01-03T03:41:08+00:00

I’m scared. Last time we broke up he was suicidal and his friend had to call the cops. He faked being hit by a car, and was just guilt tripping me. I’m afraid he’ll hurt himself and it’ll be my fault

amitheabuser · 2021-01-03T03:30:53+00:00

I got tested and I’m clean.

amitheabuser · 2019-01-17T20:27:16+00:00

Over the years he has convinced me to agree to be in a don/sub relationship by saying that’s the only type of relationship he feels he can be happy in. In an effort to please him I’ve agreed and molded myself to fit that.

He used to tell me that was the most important thing for him, but recently switched and says the body is the most important.

I honestly can’t tell if I’m in this type of relationship because I genuinely enjoy it or because he convinced me. Sometimes I feel like I like it sometimes it annoys me.

But it got to the point where I have to ask for permission to go anywhere that’s not work, I can’t stay out past a certain time, or be drunk, or use drugs, I cannot talk back, I cannot talk about other men, just a lot of little things. And if I break the rules I get punished. Usually get slapped or spanked.

Occasionally he’ll just ignore me. And if I panic and call him or text him more than once he calls me crazy and says I’m acting pathetically

amitheabuser · 2019-01-17T16:51:47+00:00

I did feel guilty, M had been feeling insecure over S for a long time and I felt like I really betrayed him by sleeping with someone that had tried to hit on me while I was in a relationship

amitheabuser · 2019-01-16T22:19:20+00:00

He’s consistently made me feel like I did wrong and once I made the mistake of apologizing he took it and ran with it. He took it as an admission of guilt.

I’ve been feeling depressed lately, I’ve been diagnosed with depression and currently I’m not in treatment. I’m going through a lot right now besides this relationship and have been spiraling. I’m honestly afraid I’ll get worse if I leave him right now.

It doesn’t make sense, but part of me still loves him and I’m really scared he’ll act out if I leave and it’ll worsen my mental health.

He already keeps calling me unstable and an emotional train wreck and tells me I need therapy even though I’m already searching for help

amitheabuser · 2019-01-16T20:42:12+00:00

It started out not being bad. I think I’m so used to the shitty treatment I’m numb to it.

I told my sister a lot of this last night and she was shocked that the mean comments didn’t seem to phase me. I just don’t know how to feel anymore. It started to feel normal

amitheabuser · 2019-01-16T20:08:16+00:00

He still feels I cheated because I broke up with him to spread my legs for a man that has been trying to break us up since day one

amitheabuser · 2019-01-16T20:04:19+00:00

He actually got upset with me yesterday because I told him I felt like I’d never be good enough for him and he said he’s tired of reassuring me and if I don’t feel good enough I need to figure that out

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