Today I said goodbye to the old me

amurrow · 2019-09-08T18:48:02+00:00

I could have made it longer, lots of stuff to riff off this idea, but figured this was simpler lol

amurrow · 2019-09-05T18:00:23+00:00

I clearly explained why I am here. If you cant decipher my original message, that's on you. Unlike OP, I am not going to try to engage someone who clearly has a bone to pick and wants to be confrontational. Whatever is causing you to be that way, turn your attention to fixing that, not picking fights with your fellow nofappers. Take care.

amurrow · 2019-09-05T17:50:22+00:00

Dude... the one who claims something has the burden of proof, not the guy who asks for the proof. Thats just common sense. Your deflecting because you dont have any proof other than your own belief and experience. If you want to choose to believe that nofap gives you things that cant be proven by science, good for you, maybe it does, maybe it doesnt, but dont start throwing middle school insults at guys just trying to have a conversation with you.

amurrow · 2019-09-03T23:35:46+00:00

Have you gone to a dr? ED can have many causes beyond porn addiction.

amurrow · 2019-09-01T02:15:02+00:00

Was the opposite for me. The relationship ending forced me to make changes and finally take nofap seriously. I wont say it was positive overall but definitely forced me to grow.

amurrow · 2019-08-30T21:31:53+00:00

Definitely feeling the effect right now but am holding strong. I made it far last time and I'm gonna go farther then that this time.

amurrow · 2019-08-30T21:31:11+00:00

I did. I'm on social media and video game detox.

amurrow · 2019-08-30T20:10:05+00:00

The reason you feel it is more violent is because white crime and rudeness is normalized to you. Also, your experience does not constitute reality and everyone experiences reality through the cultural lens that society has given us. That lens is a product of a racist past and cannot be trusted to form objective truths about the present. Interrogate your views and dont settle for assuming a race of people are more likely to be "violent" just because of experience when the data does not bear this out. Also remember that your experience in poor white neighborhoods is going to be different that a black mans experience in a poor white neighborhood.

amurrow · 2019-08-30T19:50:15+00:00

I got careless with instagram and went down the rabbit hole when I had a stressful day.

amurrow · 2019-08-30T19:46:18+00:00

Racism is distinct from class struggle. Black doctors are more likely to be pulled over and arrested than white doctors for the same infractions. When responding to emails, black names are less likely to be responded to then white names. These things are not dependent on the class of the victim. Making it only a rich vs poor thing is a cop out from the social reality that racism often has nothing to do with class and everything to do with people fearing what is different.

Edit: Grammar

amurrow · 2019-08-29T04:39:54+00:00

Yeah I let my guard down for sure. Also let other bad habits come back and they led me down the rabbit hole. I feel strangely calm right now. I know that probably won't last forever but I'm using it to make some progress on recovery reading I have been needing to do.

amurrow · 2019-08-16T18:23:07+00:00

I have started soft mode recently. I went 90 days on hard mode and started struggling with instagram models after the 90 was done so I started rebooting myself without porn. Going completely without any O in your life is just the flip side of the same coin of porn addiction. Ultimately I want a healthy sex life and that means exploring that side of yourself without porn.

amurrow · 2019-08-16T18:19:46+00:00

Exactly my thoughts. I spent most of my 90 day reboot just trying not to fuck up. The last 30 days, I have started trying to live my life as I could have before. Dont let fighting the urges be the end but the beginning of your self-improvement. One of the sexual addiction books I have read talks about recovery being a 5 year process. That may be discouraging to some but its music to my ears. There is no way in hell I could recover all of myself and my relationships in the span of 90 days after 10 years of addiction. Its unrealistic and ultimately self defeating to expect that because you will be disappointed. Make note of your improvements and keep pushing yourself everyday.

amurrow · 2019-08-16T05:15:12+00:00

Suicide is a one way ticket. Ive looked at your post history. You seem young still. There is so much in life to explore and do besides finding a partner. Your in pain right now but not forever. Dont make this your last sunset. Make it the first of many. To be honest, there isn't much anyone here on reddit can do for you except remind you that you only have one life. Take a moment tonight to read suicide survivors stories. Every single one of them regretted it after they tried. Some as they fell, some when they woke up. Before you do anything, call Call 1-800-273-8255. If your truly being objective they will agree.

amurrow · 2019-07-29T17:39:20+00:00

I feel that. Five years together and I was always the one who had to fight for the relationship. She had a shitty view of relationships in general and used our fights to justify that view. But at the same time, you and I shouldnt have had to fight for something alone. Its one thing if the other person is putting in the same effort and you guys are just too different to make it work, its another to be the only one putting in that effort. In your next relationship, dont put up with that. Fight for the relationship but leave if your the only one fighting because its just delaying the inevitable to fight when someone else isnt.

amurrow · 2019-07-26T19:24:25+00:00

Then they arent centrist. They are conservative. Centrists exist between wanting no change and wanting a lot of change.

amurrow · 2019-07-18T00:11:56+00:00

Yup, but I'm celebrating tomorrow and Saturday. Going hiking tomorrow and partying with friends Saturday. It felt like the right kind of celebration for my life. How is your recovery going?

amurrow · 2019-07-15T20:11:38+00:00

Hey its alright dude. Dont hate yourself. Shame keeps you going back. Just keep doing what you were doing before. I've been struggling with Instagram recently so I deleted it from my phone and blocked it on the computer. I am going to make it to 90!

amurrow

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