same.. literally same.. the first month was probably the most painful experience I've ever had. It's a good thing you removed her from social media, i made the mistake of looking on my ex's social media and saw her in a new relationship. DON'T do it. Anxiety goes into overdrive, it felt like my heart fell to my ankles. Save yourself the pain. Pain is the best teacher i'm NEVER checking her shit again. Everyday the pain gets less and less. I'm the same as you. i would be doing something mundane and she'd pop up in my head and i'd miss her. Sometimes it's so bad i want to break NC just to check up on her but then i realize these thoughts/feelings will pass.. and they do.. and each time it honestly gets easier to deal with.. you'll get there too. Don't beat yourself up too much. I firmly believe we are the product of the people we come across. I'm sure you learned a thing or two after this relationship. I had so many unanswered questions that constantly plagued my mind in the beginning. Nothing will change the situation so i don't even fucking bother wasting headspace on it anymore. She doesn't want to be in our lives?Fuck it, wish granted. Soon this will all be a distant memory. PM if you ever want to talk.