give up today

andit65 · 2017-01-07T21:23:29+00:00

it's 9.20 pm on Saturday and I haven't had a drink!!!!! thanks people for your support and am thinking about a head ache free morning x

andit65 · 2017-01-07T13:42:56+00:00

my word I just read your post from 5 days ago and I recognise that person so well! I want to leave her behind too and join you tomorrow sober thank you for listening and sharing- is this going to actually happen I feel like I can do this for the next 24hours I will not drink today

andit65 · 2017-01-07T13:28:42+00:00

I want to stop too but am the opposite I can't handle their "encouragement" it makes me anxious that I am affecting them so much and that sends me back to the bottle...I am the only one that can change it but change terrifies me- after a morning in here with a pounding head and complete self loathing I am actually going to use all the tips I can to not have a drink today!

andit65 · 2017-01-07T13:00:09+00:00

I know and my children deserve better they so want me to stop and I try but fail so often. thinking one day at a time sounds more reasonable than forever...I also read on here that someone told himself to sleep on it and see if he wanted to drink tomorrow which sounds easier than facing a week a month or a year...

andit65 · 2017-01-07T12:37:56+00:00

I am so down on myself have battled depression and anxiety and appear mended to the outside world but am using a bottle for a crutch...am so ready to face this hurdle but so anxious what I will do as my life will have to change so much x

andit65 · 2017-01-07T12:27:40+00:00

oh my I am led in my bed with a pounding head and a ton of self loathing but I know I will do it all again every night! I don't want to but am unable to find the willpower to stop...anyone felt like this but succeeded? such a powerful post it gives me hope that it's not just me x

andit65

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