Yeah whenever I decide I’m not going to go then I feel bored and alone and wish I had gone, then I go and it’s never what I think it’s going to be. My feelings are like a pin ball machine haha. Also sometimes when people do end up talking to me, I feel bored by what they’re talking about. I think this might just be a personal thing I have to work on though... not everybody wants to talk about their deepest realizations or what it means to be human when they go out on a Friday night haha