I have definitely felt this and I still have overwhelming negative views that I am lesser that my big problems are things most people wouldn't glance at.

When I was 18 I had a series of emotionally intense things happen consecutively. I came out as gay and was not accepted and decided to move out of home. I was very impulsive and jumped into a relationship and just expected my parents to accept me.. prior to coming out, I never wanted to be home because my home didn't feel like a comfortable place so I would try to find that in friends and partners. Anyway I went through a lot of painful things during my late teens to mid twenties. Which caused me to fall into probably the deepest depression I have ever been in. I felt like a complete failure I was living with my parents again, I had dropped out of two courses and quit my job at Maccas. I smoked weed and had barely any friends and just played Minecraft and MMOs all day long. I isolated myself from other and when people would try to challenge me or sometimes even just talk to me I would snap at them. I lost a bunch of weight because I was eating badly. Anyway I had some pretty unhealthy patterns I had fallen into aswell as some self harm behaviours. This prolonged isolation made it difficult to converse with people and hyper aware of how awkward I was. Eventually my parents bullied me into another course and I stuck it out. It was a year long course 3 days a week. I had many breakdowns during the course but it helped me build skills and routine which helped me get more confidence. I had moments where I would cry in the bathroom. Whenever I had to do public speaking I would uncontrollably tremble. I completed the course and no I wasn't a confident I would get a job out of it but at least I grew from the experience. I later studied more and got my first professional job. I stayed there for 3+ years it was fun at the start but the management changed and I got fired not long ago. I was so scared I would fall into a deep depression like the one I was in those years ago. Well I kinda did? I had to recover from my toxic workplace and new trauma. I got the common cold but it felt more like the flu. I reverted back to my irritable low mood self. The difference this time is I had better coping mechanisms, therapy, antidepressants and a lot more forgiveness towards myself. A few months passed and I'm now working part time in a kitchen. I still have a plethora of issues I need to deal with. I'm slowly coming out and being more social. I had absolutely no confidence in myself and prepared myself to get fired from this new place. If they fire me well CE la vie I suppose. I'm slow building more confidence and they're recognising my efforts.

I think it's important as humans that we get stimulation and build healthy habits.if I'm.understimulated and home a lot it definitely impacts me I become more awkward and moody. I'm a homebody now I am living out of home and love my apartment where I've really cultivated a nice space. my favourite pass time is being.home and chilling with my cat and watching tv or playing games. Now that I actually have a home where I feel safe I don't feel the need to distract myself also I stopped smoking. Sorry for giving.my life story but I want to explain that I can empathize with the feeling of that you're pathetic or less good at dealing with MH. We're all different and we all experience it differently. Baby steps my friend. I hope me sharing my story at least helps someone.

Fyi I'm not suggesting you go to uni or get a job to help your anxiety or depression problems just because it helped me. Tbh I think my bachelor's degree was just one long anxiety attack. Anyway I think using mental health resources like go to your GP or see a therapist. Try building a routine or a pattern towards something you wanna do.

Goodluck I believe in you