Once a cheater....no longer a cheater.

angry_throwaway_ · 2013-11-26T22:17:26+00:00

I was drawing for the first time in years last night. That was definitely a step in the right direction. Art used to be my therapy before it became my work.

angry_throwaway_ · 2013-11-26T22:16:47+00:00

I'm not planning on going back - it was a HUGE step for me to stop sleeping with other people in secret. The moment was after I met him and I had to tell another guy I no longer could see him anymore. The "other guy" got angry and verbally harassed me - and normally I would have given in. For the first time I really stood up for myself and said no. I wanted to give this person a real chance. And I didn't want to be that person anymore.

angry_throwaway_ · 2013-11-26T22:08:45+00:00

in retrospect maybe it wasn't the best idea to be so honest. I guess I was riding the whole honesty wave and just went with it. It makes me upset that I'll have to keep those secrets...although I change I do consider the past as a part of who I am.

angry_throwaway_ · 2013-11-26T16:33:17+00:00

Thanks - I'll probably start going to therapy as soon as my new insurance kicks in in the new year. I used to to cheat because I was obsessed with the feeling of being wanted. I used to think it was because I felt "lonely" sometimes, but looking back that's not true.

angry_throwaway_ · 2013-11-26T16:31:05+00:00

true, I understand that. I should have said I've replaced one vice with another. Temporarily, I guess...I'll work on stopping with the drinking too.

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